Realized i've been neglecting my blog when a friend of mine mentioned my blog to me.
Although a lot happened lately, i don't feel like talking about any of it at the moment.
Well i've just finished my first exam paper, and the second one is due next Thursday, so i've a couple of hrs of respite before i've to go back to hell again.
Also, have had it up to my neck with the dirt and noise of my current rented room in PJ. I don't mean my room is dirty, i mean the surroundings. Who rears chickens at home in KL? Seriously! And the kids scream 24/7. I do realise that finding another single room in the area that does not cost above RM300 is quite hard...But then, am gonna try my best.
But then, even if i DO find a room, (2 actually, gonna drag Allo along with me), there's the matter of convincing my parents to let me move.
I sooooo do not want to fight about it with them. They mean well, I DO have a landlord here who kinda looks after me and everything. But they aren't here for the chicken shit, the endless screaming, the freezing cold water nor the bad slightly perverted jokes my male landlord makes all the time. I always live in fear that he might carry out his bad jokes one day, eventhough his wife is always here.
The house is under renovations at the moment and it's noisIER and dirtIER than ever. My landlady did not keep my shoes for me even though she noes i keep some slippers outside (she wears em sometimes...=.= ) and she knew i was back in my hometown, so, i've lost a pair of slippers and the other pair plus a pair Allo keeps with me are CAKED with dirt.
Renovations means continuous hammering. ~~BAM BAM BAM~~
I nid to find a place soon...Worse comes the worst, move out alone and try to cope.
But truth is, i don't see hw i can escape from here in the near future...Will have to TRY to be patient for 1 more year i suppose.
Other matters on the other hand, are complicated as always..
Looking forward to Comic Fiesta next week. ^^
Words
Friday, December 9, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
为什么
为什么你就是不明白
为什么
为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么早安为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么不是谁给的为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么是一份心意为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么是我的安全感为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么你连这个都给不到我为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么你能给我什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么不哭为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么爱哭鬼为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么
为什么
为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么早安为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么不是谁给的为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么是一份心意为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么是我的安全感为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么你连这个都给不到我为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么你能给我什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么不哭为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么爱哭鬼为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么为什么
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
A Path Less Traveled By
There's a place you go, when you're in this situation.
When your insecurities are pounding on your door
When your pressure is mounting
When your stress is sitting like a mountain on your back
When everything goes wrong
When you have to put on a strong front cuz you know hyenas are just waiting to tear you down
When you have to keep going even though you're broken
When you are so tired all you want to do is disappear
When you want to scream but are unable to
When you are torn up inside and have jello for brains and your break is no where near
When you can't get through a day without some small accident telling you "In your face"
When you start to wonder at your own sanity
The darkness is calling you
It is inviting, restful.
But then, I have a unique perspective on things.
So, which is my 'path less traveled by'?
When your insecurities are pounding on your door
When your pressure is mounting
When your stress is sitting like a mountain on your back
When everything goes wrong
When you have to put on a strong front cuz you know hyenas are just waiting to tear you down
When you have to keep going even though you're broken
When you are so tired all you want to do is disappear
When you want to scream but are unable to
When you are torn up inside and have jello for brains and your break is no where near
When you can't get through a day without some small accident telling you "In your face"
When you start to wonder at your own sanity
You go to a place that is dark and humid
You feel numb inside
A dangerous numb feeling
You're sitting on the damp floor
drops of water drip drip dripping all around you-
but you can't see
you can only hear
There is a current-
blowing you to the left and to the right
You're numb. You want to yield.
To one side, there is light and warmth. Positivity. Strength.
On the other side, there is darkness, a list of sin; a tall building is somewhere on that list. Negativity. Rest.
You feel numb inside
A dangerous numb feeling
You're sitting on the damp floor
drops of water drip drip dripping all around you-
but you can't see
you can only hear
There is a current-
blowing you to the left and to the right
You're numb. You want to yield.
To one side, there is light and warmth. Positivity. Strength.
On the other side, there is darkness, a list of sin; a tall building is somewhere on that list. Negativity. Rest.
You sway -
to and fro
to and fro
Whenever you sway towards one side, the other side pulls you close -
you sit upright again
But then the other side pulls you near
and the struggle continues
to and fro
to and fro
Whenever you sway towards one side, the other side pulls you close -
you sit upright again
But then the other side pulls you near
and the struggle continues
The darkness is calling you
It is inviting, restful.
The brightness is beckoning
It is trying, full of hardships.
It is trying, full of hardships.
"Take the path less traveled by"
But then, I have a unique perspective on things.
So, which is my 'path less traveled by'?
The bright road lined with nails and swords with a covered dish at the end that may contain either a cupcake or a can of worms?
OR
The dark path lined with light and warmth and bells and whistles and smiles and happiness with a soft goose-feather bed in the middle and a curtain behind the bed with eternal damnation hiding in the shadows?
OR
The dark path lined with light and warmth and bells and whistles and smiles and happiness with a soft goose-feather bed in the middle and a curtain behind the bed with eternal damnation hiding in the shadows?
tough choice
Saturday, November 19, 2011
玻璃
Glass
There are many types of glass.
> Normal
> Bullet proof
> Shatter proof
etc.
I suppose i'm a transformer.
I can morph into any kind of glass depending on the situation.
玻璃，碎了会伤害到自己。也会伤害到别人。
There are many types of glass.
> Normal
> Bullet proof
> Shatter proof
etc.
I suppose i'm a transformer.
I can morph into any kind of glass depending on the situation.
玻璃，碎了会伤害到自己。也会伤害到别人。
I did not want to have this conversation again.
never again.
never ever again
i promised myself.
never again.
let it flow.
watever
i don't care anymore.
i don't want to care anymore
I'm not important to u
not as important as i need to feel
you have no right crapping to me bout hw hurt u are.
i suppose i don't have feelings nw do i?
or are mine secondary to urs?
sorry, but urs are secondary to my own.
can't deal with that, please leave.
cuz it means i'm nt as important to u as i should be.
i dont want to care anymore
i told u.
never again.
never ever again
i promised myself.
never again.
let it flow.
watever
i don't care anymore.
i don't want to care anymore
I'm not important to u
not as important as i need to feel
you have no right crapping to me bout hw hurt u are.
i suppose i don't have feelings nw do i?
or are mine secondary to urs?
sorry, but urs are secondary to my own.
can't deal with that, please leave.
cuz it means i'm nt as important to u as i should be.
i dont want to care anymore
i told u.
你是我的兄弟。就这样。
问：你知道你在做什么吗？
答：在某个程度，我懂。在某程度，我只是在自我保护。有错吗？
答：在某个程度，我懂。在某程度，我只是在自我保护。有错吗？
我不愿意再被吊得高高，
然后被丢下来。
然后被丢下来。
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
杂乱的思想
决定了，把所有男生当成兄弟
不太投入感情，就不会怕受伤害了。
原来是好事，换了个想法以后，被人约出去了。^^
对，习惯了被粗鲁的对待
我真的把你当兄弟了
没去想别的了
因为在我的方面，你给得不够。
在你的方面，我要得太多。
所以，你是我最特别的兄弟。
如果你担心一个人，
电话打不进
信息不复
你的电话该是24小时都在身边的吧？
所以我不相信你真的有那么的担心
也许你有那份心意
但是只在你方便时才有，
这对我来说，是远远都不够的。
近来思考能力差了
总是好累
总是好忙
你离开了，可是其实你没离开
你也快要离开了，几时呢？我有心理准备了
这个世界好乱。我好烦。
不太投入感情，就不会怕受伤害了。
原来是好事，换了个想法以后，被人约出去了。^^
今天有人告诉我，“我对你斯文你就好怕咯～～”
对，习惯了被粗鲁的对待
我真的把你当兄弟了
没去想别的了
因为在我的方面，你给得不够。
在你的方面，我要得太多。
所以，你是我最特别的兄弟。
昨天去淋雨了。结果今天发烧了。
如果你担心一个人，
电话打不进
信息不复
你的电话该是24小时都在身边的吧？
所以我不相信你真的有那么的担心
也许你有那份心意
但是只在你方便时才有，
这对我来说，是远远都不够的。
海洋终会离开贝壳
近来思考能力差了
总是好累
总是好忙
头痛了
你离开了，可是其实你没离开
你也快要离开了，几时呢？我有心理准备了
这个世界好乱。我好烦。
需要睡足2天
Monday, November 14, 2011
Last weekend
Last weekend was tiring.
Last weekend was magical.
Last weekend was memorable.
Last weekend has the potential to be life-altering.
Last weekend was Love.
Last weekend was Me and You.
Last weekend was Us.
Last weekend has passed.
Last weekend was magical.
Last weekend was memorable.
Last weekend has the potential to be life-altering.
Last weekend was Love.
Last weekend was Me and You.
Last weekend was Us.
Last weekend has passed.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
心中欢喜
明明就要趴下去睡的了。可是突然有灵感，就又爬起来了写布拉格了。
明天还要7.30am前到学校的呢！妈呀～～～
好呗，想到的东西是：
其实啊，想到的就只有这些啦。
可是这个真的是一个很大的问题喔。
你看啊，如果说，吵架时，双方都硬起来了，不就会WW3了吗？
如果要发生矛盾时，比如说女方不舒服可是赖死不肯去休息，男方觉得烦躁了，不要管了，女方硬起来了，可是给阶梯男方下了，可是男方却不当成一回事（太忙？面子？还是逃避？）。
完蛋了。吊在半空的女方怎么下台呢？连最浅的阶梯都没有呀～
硬碰硬了。只会越变越硬。
这世上，有那个女生不想被宠着的呢？
男生往往会说他们其实爱被唠叨，因为唠叨代表自己被在乎。
那为什么这个逻辑不能用在女生身上呢？
其实也不是每个男生都这样子啦。
今天看了一个短文，说到：
有点觉得说，如果新欢不断的让你看到那段感情的好呢？
当然，各有胜负。可是…女生都讨厌被忽略的。特别被吊在半空。
可是其实也不是很想动。也不是很敢动。
比如：不管，不“这样”的话我就不去睡！
以前：好啦好啦～乖啦～就“这样”好不好？
现在：扯！不睡就不睡啦！（这个玩笑其实一点都不好笑，特别要看情况。通常在感情事上，对女生用激将法是绝对反效果的。）
其实，新欢心欢心中欢喜心中喜欢。
能做另一个人的心中欢喜，是每一个人的福气。
可是这种只能对着空白的文章谈天的日子，心中的欢喜也会逐渐死去的。
明天还要7.30am前到学校的呢！妈呀～～～
好呗，想到的东西是：
其实2个人在一起，
吵架时，需要有一软一硬。
（这要偶尔更换哦。）
相处时，要有两软。
（不然一个人撒娇时，另外一个扫兴！那情趣在哪里？）
吵架时，需要有一软一硬。
（这要偶尔更换哦。）
相处时，要有两软。
（不然一个人撒娇时，另外一个扫兴！那情趣在哪里？）
其实啊，想到的就只有这些啦。
可是这个真的是一个很大的问题喔。
你看啊，如果说，吵架时，双方都硬起来了，不就会WW3了吗？
如果要发生矛盾时，比如说女方不舒服可是赖死不肯去休息，男方觉得烦躁了，不要管了，女方硬起来了，可是给阶梯男方下了，可是男方却不当成一回事（太忙？面子？还是逃避？）。
完蛋了。吊在半空的女方怎么下台呢？连最浅的阶梯都没有呀～
硬碰硬了。只会越变越硬。
这世上，有那个女生不想被宠着的呢？
男生往往会说他们其实爱被唠叨，因为唠叨代表自己被在乎。
那为什么这个逻辑不能用在女生身上呢？
其实也不是每个男生都这样子啦。
今天看了一个短文，说到：
想要忘记一段感情，方法永远只有一个；时间和新欢。
要是时间和新欢都不能让你忘记一段感情，
原因只有一个；时间不够长，新欢不够好。
要是时间和新欢都不能让你忘记一段感情，
原因只有一个；时间不够长，新欢不够好。
有点觉得说，如果新欢不断的让你看到那段感情的好呢？
当然，各有胜负。可是…女生都讨厌被忽略的。特别被吊在半空。
可是其实也不是很想动。也不是很敢动。
比如：不管，不“这样”的话我就不去睡！
以前：好啦好啦～乖啦～就“这样”好不好？
现在：扯！不睡就不睡啦！（这个玩笑其实一点都不好笑，特别要看情况。通常在感情事上，对女生用激将法是绝对反效果的。）
其实，新欢心欢心中欢喜心中喜欢。
能做另一个人的心中欢喜，是每一个人的福气。
可是这种只能对着空白的文章谈天的日子，心中的欢喜也会逐渐死去的。
接下来，好忙好忙哦！
贝壳需要好好的休息才有力冲刺喔！
这段时间，海洋时会暂时（？）退潮的。
其实觉得有点可悲，因为贝壳和海洋原本就只有短短的时间相遇。
可是…接下来这段时间就会没了……
贝壳需要好好的休息才有力冲刺喔！
这段时间，海洋时会暂时（？）退潮的。
其实觉得有点可悲，因为贝壳和海洋原本就只有短短的时间相遇。
可是…接下来这段时间就会没了……
突然想到，其实，海洋和贝壳，根本就不懂得要怎么相处，为什么还执迷不悟呢？
都怪心中欢喜
都怪心中欢喜
1.11.11
There's too much Chinese and too much emo in my blogs isn't there?
That is a statement. Not a question.
So, time for a rant.
So, recently, it has been raining a lot; like everyday.
Usually it rains around 5pm which is when most people are either going for dinner or getting off work, or both; for the more unfortunate bunch.
Right.
Now today, was a complicated day.
It started with waking up at the right side of bed and filled with motivation to make it a productive day.
Had a nice huge more-like-two-cups of hot white coffee that pumped me up. Motivation up.
Classes at 10am.
Off to find parking at 9.50am. Bad move. Motivation fell.
Waited until 10.13am and finally found one. Motivation raised.
Raced to class and sat at the back. Switched on my computer to do some research. Internet down. Motivation took a major crash.
After class, off for lunch. Got a pretty purple umbrella with UV protection from a Freshkon promotional truck. Motivation raised tiny bit.
After lunch, class. Since it was at another block, comp on again. No line. Motivation gone.
Went to consultation with group members. Got praised by tutor. Motivation UpUpUp.
Went home, hungry at 4pm. Called friend, had early dinner.
Gobbled food to get papaya from pasar malam before it rained.
Car was two rows from pasar malam, rained cats and dogs.
Went home.
Had an umbrella, was 10 steps away from my house, still got drenched. Motivation......half gone.
Got back to my room, changed my wet clothes. Thigh started to feel itchy. Hives.
Now, i've a bloody headache.
Weirdly enough, the only comforting thought i have is that in half an hour, i'll be once again immersed in my After Effects and taking breaks to watch Blue Exorcist. Motivation at the thought? 60%
Motivation after ranting? 80%
Motivation after listening to Mr Saxobeat? 90%
That is a statement. Not a question.
So, time for a rant.
So, recently, it has been raining a lot; like everyday.
Usually it rains around 5pm which is when most people are either going for dinner or getting off work, or both; for the more unfortunate bunch.
Right.
Now today, was a complicated day.
It started with waking up at the right side of bed and filled with motivation to make it a productive day.
Had a nice huge more-like-two-cups of hot white coffee that pumped me up. Motivation up.
Classes at 10am.
Off to find parking at 9.50am. Bad move. Motivation fell.
Waited until 10.13am and finally found one. Motivation raised.
Raced to class and sat at the back. Switched on my computer to do some research. Internet down. Motivation took a major crash.
After class, off for lunch. Got a pretty purple umbrella with UV protection from a Freshkon promotional truck. Motivation raised tiny bit.
After lunch, class. Since it was at another block, comp on again. No line. Motivation gone.
Went to consultation with group members. Got praised by tutor. Motivation UpUpUp.
Went home, hungry at 4pm. Called friend, had early dinner.
Gobbled food to get papaya from pasar malam before it rained.
Car was two rows from pasar malam, rained cats and dogs.
Went home.
Had an umbrella, was 10 steps away from my house, still got drenched. Motivation......half gone.
Got back to my room, changed my wet clothes. Thigh started to feel itchy. Hives.
Thought: Don't tell me I'm bloody allergic to the rain....
Motivation...gone case.Now, i've a bloody headache.
Weirdly enough, the only comforting thought i have is that in half an hour, i'll be once again immersed in my After Effects and taking breaks to watch Blue Exorcist. Motivation at the thought? 60%
Motivation after ranting? 80%
Motivation after listening to Mr Saxobeat? 90%
I'm good...
Friday, October 28, 2011
请把贝壳粉碎
贝壳真的真的真的好希望可以被粉碎掉
因为只有粉碎了的贝壳才不会有感觉
有没有考虑过
其实贝壳并不爱当贝壳
其实贝壳也想要有自己的天空
贝壳宁愿自己看恐怖片
然后失眠
也不要期待有人陪她看恐怖片
却白等
贝壳想要自由
好想好想
好像好想好想
就拜托
有谁要吧贝壳粉碎了
贝壳其实讨厌贝壳
你永远都不会明白
贝壳有多讨厌贝壳
贝壳有多讨厌当贝壳
因为只有粉碎了的贝壳才不会有感觉
有没有考虑过
其实贝壳并不爱当贝壳
其实贝壳也想要有自己的天空
贝壳宁愿自己看恐怖片
然后失眠
也不要期待有人陪她看恐怖片
却白等
贝壳想要自由
好想好想
好像好想好想
就拜托
有谁要吧贝壳粉碎了
贝壳其实讨厌贝壳
你永远都不会明白
贝壳有多讨厌贝壳
贝壳有多讨厌当贝壳
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
散散步
好几天没有写布拉格了～
其实这几天都有事情发生，比如去了team building camp玩得好开心却弄得满身伤啊～
还有喉咙好痛～声音跑掉了啊～
可是想在突然想写的都不关于这些，而关于另外一些。
嘻嘻嘻～
今天是Deepavali。就是放假啊～
学校当然就没有课了。所以我就慌在家里没事做啊～
现在早上9.30am
一个美好的假日，我为什么这么早就醒来了呢？
答案是因为我今早运动去了。
今早和海洋到Taman Lembah Kinta去跑步了（其实算是漫步，因为贝壳和海洋昨晚都夜睡，根本没力跑～）
其实那个公园贝壳去过，上次去哪儿拍广告做背景。
可惜贝壳不懂原来运动前是要先吃点东西打低的，
所以跑到一半肚子不舒服，想吐～
所以散步就变慢步了～
其实贝壳真的很不舒服，可是不想扫海洋的兴，所以加油继续了。
海洋看到贝壳不舒服，有问候问候，
可是，海洋，你知道吗？你跑得好快，贝壳没力跑了，却也没力抓着你，而你也没有停下来让贝壳依靠。
感觉到的，那一刻，头搭在肩膀上，你的脚步移开了……
过后跑完第二个圈了，就去吃早餐咯～
海洋说要吃炒粉，贝壳开心因为不用烦要吃什么，可是，贝壳可是声音还是很沙哑的，真的要吃炒粉吗？
到了以后，原来是经济粉。还好还好～
贝壳要求加curry，其实知道喉咙不舒服，可是就是想吃啊～
海洋没有阻止。
海洋是哪一种“爱吃什么吃饱它，谁管你会不会病死”的人
说“你是哪种不会管人的人啦～”的时候，突然想到，
如果是以前的那个他，喉咙痛，还吃curry，他的眉头该会皱得死死的了吧？
还会唠唠叨叨的呢～
可是就是因为他老爱唠叨我，而且是从来不会嫌烦，所以我知道他在乎我。^^
不说那个他了。
其实贝壳真的不懂海洋在想什么
真的是海底针
可是也没什么不好
比朋友好一点，却比恋人差好多
其实我能接受啦～
就继续飘吧～
其实这几天都有事情发生，比如去了team building camp玩得好开心却弄得满身伤啊～
还有喉咙好痛～声音跑掉了啊～
可是想在突然想写的都不关于这些，而关于另外一些。
嘻嘻嘻～
今天是Deepavali。就是放假啊～
学校当然就没有课了。所以我就慌在家里没事做啊～
现在早上9.30am
一个美好的假日，我为什么这么早就醒来了呢？
答案是因为我今早运动去了。
今早和海洋到Taman Lembah Kinta去跑步了（其实算是漫步，因为贝壳和海洋昨晚都夜睡，根本没力跑～）
其实那个公园贝壳去过，上次去哪儿拍广告做背景。
可惜贝壳不懂原来运动前是要先吃点东西打低的，
所以跑到一半肚子不舒服，想吐～
所以散步就变慢步了～
其实贝壳真的很不舒服，可是不想扫海洋的兴，所以加油继续了。
海洋看到贝壳不舒服，有问候问候，
可是，海洋，你知道吗？你跑得好快，贝壳没力跑了，却也没力抓着你，而你也没有停下来让贝壳依靠。
感觉到的，那一刻，头搭在肩膀上，你的脚步移开了……
过后跑完第二个圈了，就去吃早餐咯～
海洋说要吃炒粉，贝壳开心因为不用烦要吃什么，可是，贝壳可是声音还是很沙哑的，真的要吃炒粉吗？
到了以后，原来是经济粉。还好还好～
贝壳要求加curry，其实知道喉咙不舒服，可是就是想吃啊～
海洋没有阻止。
海洋是哪一种“爱吃什么吃饱它，谁管你会不会病死”的人
说“你是哪种不会管人的人啦～”的时候，突然想到，
如果是以前的那个他，喉咙痛，还吃curry，他的眉头该会皱得死死的了吧？
还会唠唠叨叨的呢～
可是就是因为他老爱唠叨我，而且是从来不会嫌烦，所以我知道他在乎我。^^
不说那个他了。
其实贝壳真的不懂海洋在想什么
真的是海底针
可是也没什么不好
比朋友好一点，却比恋人差好多
其实我能接受啦～
就继续飘吧～
可是真的不懂今天要干什么好～TT
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Perceptions on Maturity
They say that Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
Well, I say that Maturity is in the eyes of the beholder as well.
Many people have a different a perception towards maturity,
some think that a person who gets affronted by a casual joke is immature,
but on the other hand,
everyone's perception towards a 'casual joke' is different.
Some may think that a person who collects Hello Kittys are immature,
but on the other hand,
everyone has different passions, likes and dislikes.
Some may think that girls who pout because their boyfriends are too busy working to be with them are immature,
but then everybody has different personalities,
some are independent and don't mind being left alone sometimes while others mind very much.
"Immaturity" is another form of an ideal you push upon others.
The truth is, everyone has a different perception on maturity and also a different way of showing it.
Everyone is different.
If you took the time to see it,
you would see that I DO take your bad jokes well.
you would see that I ask those things because I just want to say what's on my mind.
you would see that I DO tolerate your fucked up ugly ass expression.
But I DO NOT appreciate your current attitude.
Well, I say that Maturity is in the eyes of the beholder as well.
Many people have a different a perception towards maturity,
some think that a person who gets affronted by a casual joke is immature,
but on the other hand,
everyone's perception towards a 'casual joke' is different.
Some may think that a person who collects Hello Kittys are immature,
but on the other hand,
everyone has different passions, likes and dislikes.
Some may think that girls who pout because their boyfriends are too busy working to be with them are immature,
but then everybody has different personalities,
some are independent and don't mind being left alone sometimes while others mind very much.
"Immaturity" is another form of an ideal you push upon others.
The truth is, everyone has a different perception on maturity and also a different way of showing it.
Fuck you if you think I'm immature for not taking your bad joke well.
Fuck you if you think I'm immature because I ask silly questions.
Fuck you if you think I'm immature for not liking it when you stare at me with that fucked up ugly ass expression.
And FUCK YOU if you think I'm immature for getting affronted at you not spending time with me.
Fuck you if you think I'm immature because I ask silly questions.
Fuck you if you think I'm immature for not liking it when you stare at me with that fucked up ugly ass expression.
And FUCK YOU if you think I'm immature for getting affronted at you not spending time with me.
Everyone is different.
If you took the time to see it,
you would see that I DO take your bad jokes well.
you would see that I ask those things because I just want to say what's on my mind.
you would see that I DO tolerate your fucked up ugly ass expression.
But I DO NOT appreciate your current attitude.
I DO NOT OWE YOU FUCK.
mature, immature, mature, immature, mature, immature, mature, immature
In the end, they're just words that have different meanings to different people.
In the end, they're just words that have different meanings to different people.
Thursday, October 13, 2011
海洋和贝壳的故事
从前从前，
贝壳被海洋放任了
贝壳无家可归，无依无靠
可是为了生存，它为自己谋出一条生路了
它渐渐的试着把海洋放下
过后过后，
海洋突然回来了
它说要把贝壳带走
贝壳好想说，
当初不是说好放任我的了吗？
在我需要你的时候，你去了哪里？
贝壳好想说，
曾经，我把你放任了。
过后，你把我放任了。
我们扯平了。
为什么还要回来搅乱我的心湖？
可是贝壳说不出口。
因为它知道海洋是真心的。
海洋放不下。
而贝壳，
贝壳是留恋着的。
所以贝壳静悄悄的
在海洋和陆地的边缘踏步
因为它被海洋放任后
陆地成了它的家。
贝壳知道，
海洋中有一天，一定会退潮
然后再次把贝壳放任
所以它原地踏步
珍惜着海洋涨潮时给它的美好
等待着它再次退潮时留给它的放任
毕竟贝壳，
也只不过是一个渺小的贝壳。
贝壳被海洋放任了
贝壳无家可归，无依无靠
可是为了生存，它为自己谋出一条生路了
它渐渐的试着把海洋放下
过后过后，
海洋突然回来了
它说要把贝壳带走
贝壳好想说，
当初不是说好放任我的了吗？
在我需要你的时候，你去了哪里？
贝壳好想说，
曾经，我把你放任了。
过后，你把我放任了。
我们扯平了。
为什么还要回来搅乱我的心湖？
可是贝壳说不出口。
因为它知道海洋是真心的。
海洋放不下。
而贝壳，
贝壳是留恋着的。
所以贝壳静悄悄的
在海洋和陆地的边缘踏步
因为它被海洋放任后
陆地成了它的家。
贝壳知道，
海洋中有一天，一定会退潮
然后再次把贝壳放任
所以它原地踏步
珍惜着海洋涨潮时给它的美好
等待着它再次退潮时留给它的放任
毕竟贝壳，
也只不过是一个渺小的贝壳。
Monday, October 10, 2011
An Ideal (V for Vendetta)
Read V for Vendetta recently.
(The graphic novel version)
I've watched the movie b4, and after reading the graphic novel, i feel the movie is not bad. Unlike most movies made from novels, the movie actually uses does the novel justice in the sense that it shows the core idea of the story.
And the bonus was Natalie Portman. Hehe..can't help but like her^^
The core idea of the whole story is basically showing how much people can do for an ideal they are in love with.
Ideals.
If you reli think about it, everyone is in love with an ideal actually.
To me,
An Ideal = An Illusion of something perfect that you wish existed
An ideal makes you blind to the truth and to everything else.
And in your pursuit of that ideal, you might just end up giving up everything else.
And/or when that ideal dissipates, you're left with nothing but an empty shell.
An Ideal = An Illusion of something perfect that you wish existed
An ideal makes you blind to the truth and to everything else.
And in your pursuit of that ideal, you might just end up giving up everything else.
And/or when that ideal dissipates, you're left with nothing but an empty shell.
There are perfect examples of what i just mentioned in the novel.
V was an ideal
Derek, the innocently murdered husband, was an ideal
Justice, was an ideal
The love of Fate, was an ideal
The Voice Of Fate, was an ideal
In real life,
The Price and the Princess, is an ideal
Happily ever after, is an ideal
The perfect one, is an ideal
The one who got away, is an ideal
Pure friendship between two sexes without awkward complications, is an ideal
RM5 for a karaoke session, is an ideal (there's always forced tidbits and tax)
The Price and the Princess, is an ideal
Happily ever after, is an ideal
The perfect one, is an ideal
The one who got away, is an ideal
Pure friendship between two sexes without awkward complications, is an ideal
RM5 for a karaoke session, is an ideal (there's always forced tidbits and tax)
For the sake of an Ideal, V willingly gave up his life
For the sake of an Ideal, Rose threw her life away
For the sake of an Ideal, Evey gave up her identity
For the sake of an Ideal, people all over the world lay weeping on their beds for undeserving twats
For the sake of an Ideal, we toil and force ourselves forward, even when we're broken and bleeding out of every pore
For the sake of an Ideal, citizens vote
but let's not get political
For the sake of an Ideal, citizens vote
but let's not get political
The fact is that Ideals exist because we do not live in a perfect world and yet we strive for perfection in all things.
This is the truth.
It's not pretty, but it's true all the same.
This is the truth.
It's not pretty, but it's true all the same.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
6/10/11 （不睡篇）
告诉你一个秘密：
当一位姑娘说她不舒服时，你要安慰。
当她说她不想睡时，你要安慰。
当她说她好烦时，你要宁听，然后安慰。
当一位姑娘说她不舒服时，你要安慰。
当她说她不想睡时，你要安慰。
当她说她好烦时，你要宁听，然后安慰。
当她说她不舒服，却不想睡因为她很烦却不告诉你她烦什么时，
你要安慰。
因为可能，
真的可能，
她是为了想和你说话，
所以很累，头很晕，
都宁愿不睡的。
你要安慰。
因为可能，
真的可能，
她是为了想和你说话，
所以很累，头很晕，
都宁愿不睡的。
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Depressed 2
Lord...
I'm so depressed...0.0
Y am i so depressed?
I don't know.
I'm just depressed....==
Haix....
I wanna go relax.
I'm so depressed...0.0
Y am i so depressed?
I don't know.
I'm just depressed....==
Haix....
I wanna go relax.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
depressed..
Suddenly feel damn depressed..
Haix....dunnoe y...
Everyone else seems so happy...
But I'm damn depressed...
I guess i miss you...
but you're too bz to miss me...
Depressed....
depressed...........
depressed...................
DEPRESSED
Haix....dunnoe y...
Everyone else seems so happy...
But I'm damn depressed...
I guess i miss you...
but you're too bz to miss me...
Depressed....
depressed...........
depressed...................
DEPRESSED
4/10/11
不知不觉的，
又在网上寻找你的踪影了
确实不实际
可是……
女人嘛……
就是这样子
在这种时候，会后悔把一切联系的方式断掉了
可是认真的想下
如果没砍断
依旧的寻找你踪影的行动
也不会有结果的
重点：你还存有我的电话号码
又在网上寻找你的踪影了
确实不实际
可是……
女人嘛……
就是这样子
在这种时候，会后悔把一切联系的方式断掉了
可是认真的想下
如果没砍断
依旧的寻找你踪影的行动
也不会有结果的
重点：你还存有我的电话号码
Monday, October 3, 2011
3/10/11
Once again realised i'm very easily influenced.
Although it's good news in some aspects,
it's a nightmare in others.
Have been watching Taiwan series again lately,
my fav 恶作剧之吻.
Just picked up Pride and Prejudice again.
That's when i realised i'm easily influenced.
Back in the day when i was reading books non-stop, i can digest 18th century English like a glutton digests chicken pie.
Taken, there IS a certain skill needed to understand and appreciate this unique brand of language,
i still appreciate it, but it's just that much harder to digest it.
Will try hard though.
Although it's good news in some aspects,
it's a nightmare in others.
Have been watching Taiwan series again lately,
my fav 恶作剧之吻.
Just picked up Pride and Prejudice again.
That's when i realised i'm easily influenced.
Back in the day when i was reading books non-stop, i can digest 18th century English like a glutton digests chicken pie.
Taken, there IS a certain skill needed to understand and appreciate this unique brand of language,
i still appreciate it, but it's just that much harder to digest it.
Will try hard though.
经来都在发梦
差不多天天都梦到他
真的……
好久没有试过这样了～
前阵子蛮开心的
那种特别的告诉我“我想你了”的方式
蛮窝心的
希望H1N1快快吹过～
那“安”，有戴着吗？
差不多天天都梦到他
真的……
好久没有试过这样了～
前阵子蛮开心的
那种特别的告诉我“我想你了”的方式
蛮窝心的
希望H1N1快快吹过～
那“安”，有戴着吗？
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Drivers and Passengers
I just realized another thing I'm really envious of with couples.
They get to talk in the car.
Don't get what I mean?
Well, i've had a chance to be alone in a car with another person fairly much lately and i realised that the conversation you have in a car is really more in depth. No one is in a hurry to get anywhere. (I mean, even if you were in a hurry, you can't just jump out the car.. =.=)
I'm envious of the conversations two people in a relationship have in that time that they're alone in the car. Cut out from all the noise and pollution and rush of the world. (Unless you're stuck in a jam. Even then! With someone by ur side, at least u can discuss how crappy the driving skills of the driver in front of you are instead of having to discuss the issue with the Domo swinging on ur windshield.)
I remember a scene. He's driving and holding my hand at the same time. We're talking and laughing. We stop talking, and i just look at the side of his face and study his expression while he's driving.
People who are in a relationship have that. I don't.
So I'm envious.
They get to talk in the car.
Don't get what I mean?
Well, i've had a chance to be alone in a car with another person fairly much lately and i realised that the conversation you have in a car is really more in depth. No one is in a hurry to get anywhere. (I mean, even if you were in a hurry, you can't just jump out the car.. =.=)
I'm envious of the conversations two people in a relationship have in that time that they're alone in the car. Cut out from all the noise and pollution and rush of the world. (Unless you're stuck in a jam. Even then! With someone by ur side, at least u can discuss how crappy the driving skills of the driver in front of you are instead of having to discuss the issue with the Domo swinging on ur windshield.)
I remember a scene. He's driving and holding my hand at the same time. We're talking and laughing. We stop talking, and i just look at the side of his face and study his expression while he's driving.
People who are in a relationship have that. I don't.
So I'm envious.
Haix.....I'm envious....
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Books Books & More Books
Just realised i haven't blogged in so long~
Well..let's start with my most recent news.
I'm back in Ipoh; my wonderfully yummy hometown.
Am waiting impatiently for a package of psychotic genre books filled with kidnappings and crack stories about other worlds , it's due bout next week i think...Courtesy of my dear new friend who resembles a grizzly bear.^^
Was gonna shop for a book introduced by the Grizzly, but couldn't find it in MPH and din bother looking at Popular (the downside of being back in Ipoh - Crappy bookstores....== ), so got 2 books I've always wanted to read instead.
Another thing i love about being back here is the air conditioning.
I mean, I'm not the "must-have-air-con-or-die" kinda girl, infact, i don't like the cold; but then, it's amazingly hot in Ipoh and my room has blackout curtains somemore, hence, no air-con = no sleep.
Also, I missed my king-sized bed to bits~~
Unfortunately, it is half filled with clothes and books. I've got books packed around my ears. (No doubt my incoming consignment shall join its brothers and sisters soon. <3)
Well..let's start with my most recent news.
I'm back in Ipoh; my wonderfully yummy hometown.
Am waiting impatiently for a package of psychotic genre books filled with kidnappings and crack stories about other worlds , it's due bout next week i think...Courtesy of my dear new friend who resembles a grizzly bear.^^
Was gonna shop for a book introduced by the Grizzly, but couldn't find it in MPH and din bother looking at Popular (the downside of being back in Ipoh - Crappy bookstores....== ), so got 2 books I've always wanted to read instead.
- Pride and Prejudice
(Sense and Sensibility next on the list)
- The Holy Bible
(which fills me to the brim with questions...I've got issues...0.0 )
(Sense and Sensibility next on the list)
- The Holy Bible
(which fills me to the brim with questions...I've got issues...0.0 )
Another thing i love about being back here is the air conditioning.
I mean, I'm not the "must-have-air-con-or-die" kinda girl, infact, i don't like the cold; but then, it's amazingly hot in Ipoh and my room has blackout curtains somemore, hence, no air-con = no sleep.
Also, I missed my king-sized bed to bits~~
Unfortunately, it is half filled with clothes and books. I've got books packed around my ears. (No doubt my incoming consignment shall join its brothers and sisters soon. <3)
The books currently sharing my bed:
1) The Holy Bible
(At Leviticus at the moment)
2) What On Earth Evolved?
(About to start on the Influenza)
3) Things Unborn
(Just reading the synopsis bores me...it's just sitting there cuz the cover is blood red.
Oh bite me...== )
4) Pride and Prejudice
(Jane just got sick and Darcy is getting more interested in Lizzy)
5) Underworld
(Finished it eons ago...)
6) Power of Three
(No...it's not Charmed...==)
6) Richie Rich, Casper & Archie comics
(Reliving my childhood^^)
7) Saint Valentine
(It's getting acquainted with dust.)
8) Mina magazine
9) 平旦，黑色水母漫画
Special guests:
1) My aircon remote
2) My phone
1) The Holy Bible
(At Leviticus at the moment)
2) What On Earth Evolved?
(About to start on the Influenza)
3) Things Unborn
(Just reading the synopsis bores me...it's just sitting there cuz the cover is blood red.
Oh bite me...== )
4) Pride and Prejudice
(Jane just got sick and Darcy is getting more interested in Lizzy)
5) Underworld
(Finished it eons ago...)
6) Power of Three
(No...it's not Charmed...==)
6) Richie Rich, Casper & Archie comics
(Reliving my childhood^^)
7) Saint Valentine
(It's getting acquainted with dust.)
8) Mina magazine
9) 平旦，黑色水母漫画
Special guests:
1) My aircon remote
2) My phone
Somehow or rather, this blog about my current situation has turned into an accounting of how many books i have sleeping with me at the moment....=.=
Oh well...I guess my life is about books anyway....Happy happy life^^
Oh well...I guess my life is about books anyway....Happy happy life^^
Can't wait for
The Collector
The Wasp Factory
&
DiscWorld
to arrive!!
!!!!Excited!!!!
The Collector
The Wasp Factory
&
DiscWorld
to arrive!!
!!!!Excited!!!!
GOD...it's so liberating to rant in English again.....<3
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
变态跟踪狂？？
今天发生了一件还蛮大的事喔～
今天吃了晚餐回家时，看到一辆开得很慢的摩托，它迎面而来。然后那个司机一直看着我。我就觉得奇怪啊～就看回去咯～就以为认识的嘛～结果一点都不眼熟。
然后我就快步走回家啊～怎知道他竟然跟着我～然后停在我家门口。我进门了他还在门口看着我。
然后我跑回房间后，他还把摩托开到对面大树下然后继续在对面看着我。
知道我关门为止我还听到他的摩托声在我的对面响亮着。
然后他走了。
可是我就越想越觉得不对劲啊！所以就让家人知道了～
家人的反应都好大哦～他们都叫我回怡保之类的。
我有事做啊！所以当然不肯了。
接下来，考虑很久以后，决定告诉他发生了什么事。
他知道后打来问我究竟了。
可是就此而已。
父母说，怕那个是个变态跟踪狂。
说他现在知道我住哪里了，而且我房间又对着外面，很危险，
所以叫我到朋友家住。
我考虑考虑吧……
可是因为我不要让你觉得我靠这些东西引得陪我
所以我说我还好
既然你都不觉得我有危险了
既然你都不会担心了
那我还说这么多做么？
今天吃了晚餐回家时，看到一辆开得很慢的摩托，它迎面而来。然后那个司机一直看着我。我就觉得奇怪啊～就看回去咯～就以为认识的嘛～结果一点都不眼熟。
然后我就快步走回家啊～怎知道他竟然跟着我～然后停在我家门口。我进门了他还在门口看着我。
然后我跑回房间后，他还把摩托开到对面大树下然后继续在对面看着我。
知道我关门为止我还听到他的摩托声在我的对面响亮着。
然后他走了。
可是我就越想越觉得不对劲啊！所以就让家人知道了～
家人的反应都好大哦～他们都叫我回怡保之类的。
我有事做啊！所以当然不肯了。
接下来，考虑很久以后，决定告诉他发生了什么事。
他知道后打来问我究竟了。
可是就此而已。
父母说，怕那个是个变态跟踪狂。
说他现在知道我住哪里了，而且我房间又对着外面，很危险，
所以叫我到朋友家住。
我考虑考虑吧……
我说，我不怕啦～他应该不是什么变态。只不过是奇怪了一点而已。
其实，
一个女生
面对这种事情，
会不怕吗？
一个女生
面对这种事情，
会不怕吗？
可是因为我不要让你觉得我靠这些东西引得陪我
所以我说我还好
既然你都不觉得我有危险了
既然你都不会担心了
那我还说这么多做么？
我会没事。
就算发生了什么事。也不关你的事。
就算发生了什么事。也不关你的事。
开始讨厌你了
Monday, September 19, 2011
美梦^^
昨晚我发了一个梦
在梦里面，
身边有你。
梦里的我刚睡醒，
看见你的脸
和你说声早安
小孩似的跟你要了一个拥抱
跟你说了我发了的梦
你摸摸我的头，说我想太多了
忘了你有没有亲我
可是记得你说再见
我说“Have a good day”
你说“蛤？”
“Have a good day”
“You too”
你轻轻地起身
轻轻地开门
轻轻地离开了
然后我就醒来了
虽然知道是发了一场梦，可是在某个阶段来说，
它是真的。
好希望可以快点有再发到这一个梦。
^^我完美的早安^^
～～嘻嘻嘻～～
P.S. 今天烂kin的我难得很诚实。也吓到了我自己。应该也吓到我城市的对象了吧？0.0
在梦里面，
身边有你。
梦里的我刚睡醒，
看见你的脸
和你说声早安
小孩似的跟你要了一个拥抱
跟你说了我发了的梦
你摸摸我的头，说我想太多了
忘了你有没有亲我
可是记得你说再见
我说“Have a good day”
你说“蛤？”
“Have a good day”
“You too”
你轻轻地起身
轻轻地开门
轻轻地离开了
然后我就醒来了
虽然知道是发了一场梦，可是在某个阶段来说，
它是真的。
好希望可以快点有再发到这一个梦。
^^我完美的早安^^
～～嘻嘻嘻～～
P.S. 今天烂kin的我难得很诚实。也吓到了我自己。应该也吓到我城市的对象了吧？0.0
Saturday, September 17, 2011
逞强
一直都觉得自己很kin。
有些人不明白kin的意思。
是很逞强。
我就是很逞强。
特别是对我的另一半。
今天考虑了，
我需要大概2个月的时间学会对我的他不kin。
可惜，我都不会给自己这么长的时间
问：怎么说呢？
答：就说…我往往会在我们结束后，才会结束我的kin
听起来很笨…可是就是这样…
结果我发恶梦了
枕头生虫了0.0
是在尸体里爬的那种虫0.0
所以枕头袋拿去洗了
无厘头吗？
有些人不明白kin的意思。
是很逞强。
我就是很逞强。
特别是对我的另一半。
今天考虑了，
我需要大概2个月的时间学会对我的他不kin。
可惜，我都不会给自己这么长的时间
问：怎么说呢？
答：就说…我往往会在我们结束后，才会结束我的kin
听起来很笨…可是就是这样…
昨晚发了一封信息
还好手机没开
没收到
还好手机没开
没收到
结果我发恶梦了
枕头生虫了0.0
是在尸体里爬的那种虫0.0
所以枕头袋拿去洗了
无厘头吗？
想你
Friday, September 16, 2011
快乐
他：我只想要你快乐
她：那你觉得你这样做我快乐吗
快乐
对不同的人有不同的定义
我觉得这样做，你会快乐
你却不快乐
你觉得这样做，我会快乐
我却不快乐
为什么大家不停下脚步
看看
到底怎么做，才会让他/她快乐呢
下次，
记得
要这样做…………………………
也许你爱她
可是你不懂得怎样爱她
也许你差一步就爱上了他
可是懦弱的你无法踏前了
Thursday, September 15, 2011
遗失了的骄傲
今天看了一篇文章。
一个对我很重要的人恍然发现她的骄傲不见了。
我说，
你之前是做错了
可是在你踏前这么多次以后
他还是没有反应
为了这样的男人失去你的骄傲，
多不值得啊
一个对我很重要的人恍然发现她的骄傲不见了。
她想着想着，说，应该是她被宠坏了，
一直以来，只有放弃，没有被放弃过
一直以来虽然放弃了，后悔，犹豫，的时候，都回得了头的
所以一直接受不了事情的进展
到了这个地步，
她拥有的，也只有文字的陪伴。
努力地写，把想告诉他的都写下来。
可是却从不连名带姓的说给谁
因为她知道他会懂
她希望他会懂
希望他会回答
于是
她遗失了她的骄傲
写了数百个字
为了得到他关心的几句话
那几句话却从未听到
就算有，也是带过
一直以来，只有放弃，没有被放弃过
一直以来虽然放弃了，后悔，犹豫，的时候，都回得了头的
所以一直接受不了事情的进展
到了这个地步，
她拥有的，也只有文字的陪伴。
努力地写，把想告诉他的都写下来。
可是却从不连名带姓的说给谁
因为她知道他会懂
她希望他会懂
希望他会回答
于是
她遗失了她的骄傲
写了数百个字
为了得到他关心的几句话
那几句话却从未听到
就算有，也是带过
我说，
你之前是做错了
可是在你踏前这么多次以后
他还是没有反应
为了这样的男人失去你的骄傲，
多不值得啊
“删掉了MSN 一个人 在电脑前流泪..
删掉了电话号码 一个人 在窗前神伤
以后 再也不会期待
不会看他在不在线了
不会看他的空间了
不会期待他的讯息和电话了
不会期待他会关心你..”
虽然这是第N次删掉面子书了，
可是这一次
希望
希望
真的
真的
是最后一次了
电话号码也删去吧
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
放飞机…T.T
我的脸上是不是写着
“放我飞机吧”呢？
为什么会连续2天被同1个人放了2次飞机呢？
还期待着，却白等，还要追问责任时迟迟未受答复的那一种。
救命啦…
其实哦…有一点不懂为什么这么吊儿郎当，不闻不问的人会有这么多朋友呢？
也许只是我受到这种对待吧？
那我谢礼了…
我不要～～T.T
我的地位不保了哦～
算了啦…反正原本都没有什么地位啦……
其实被遗忘，
被敷衍
是很痛一下的哦……
不行！努力！
!!保持开朗!!
“放我飞机吧”呢？
为什么会连续2天被同1个人放了2次飞机呢？
还期待着，却白等，还要追问责任时迟迟未受答复的那一种。
救命啦…
其实哦…有一点不懂为什么这么吊儿郎当，不闻不问的人会有这么多朋友呢？
也许只是我受到这种对待吧？
那我谢礼了…
我不要～～T.T
我的地位不保了哦～
算了啦…反正原本都没有什么地位啦……
其实被遗忘，
被敷衍
是很痛一下的哦……
不行！努力！
!!保持开朗!!
Monday, September 12, 2011
难得的开心篇～
今天开心因为考完了一个很难很难的科目。
今天开心因为好友忙里偷闲陪我吃渴望已久的BBQ。
今天开心因为6.30pm，天还亮着，叫朋友陪我去买蜡烛然后马上玩，而没有被拒绝。
今天开心因为过了好多蜡烛，很多灯笼，和一只孔明灯的中秋节。
今天开心因为买了生命中第一只打火机。（用来点蜡烛的）
今天开心因为我点了好多好多好多蜡烛。
今天开心因为我的猪肉丸掉了2次，我成功捡回2次，吃掉了。引起全场大笑。大家都好开心。（我真的不是故意的…那肉丸就是爱跳…0.0）
今天开心因为在这FB发达的时代，还有朋友发简讯给祝我中秋愉快。
今天开心因为终于诚实的对某人说了我的想法。（知道我不爽没有？还好你道歉…;p ）
今天开心因为有只猫猫对我撒娇！
今天不开心因为洗脸剂用完了，呆头呆脑的我却忘了买。（已经第2天了……）
今天不开心因为有人约了我，却放了我飞机。而且还是我白等了好几个小时才放我飞机。（训过了…^^）
今天开心因为好友忙里偷闲陪我吃渴望已久的BBQ。
今天开心因为6.30pm，天还亮着，叫朋友陪我去买蜡烛然后马上玩，而没有被拒绝。
今天开心因为过了好多蜡烛，很多灯笼，和一只孔明灯的中秋节。
今天开心因为买了生命中第一只打火机。（用来点蜡烛的）
今天开心因为我点了好多好多好多蜡烛。
今天开心因为我的猪肉丸掉了2次，我成功捡回2次，吃掉了。引起全场大笑。大家都好开心。（我真的不是故意的…那肉丸就是爱跳…0.0）
今天开心因为在这FB发达的时代，还有朋友发简讯给祝我中秋愉快。
今天开心因为终于诚实的对某人说了我的想法。（知道我不爽没有？还好你道歉…;p ）
今天开心因为有只猫猫对我撒娇！
今天不开心因为洗脸剂用完了，呆头呆脑的我却忘了买。（已经第2天了……）
今天不开心因为有人约了我，却放了我飞机。而且还是我白等了好几个小时才放我飞机。（训过了…^^）
把每天的快乐填满自己的心房，把不快乐压到最小。
想要把自己从谷底拉起来。
加油喔！
要把今天的开心，留到明天再回忆^^
想要把自己从谷底拉起来。
加油喔！
要把今天的开心，留到明天再回忆^^
Saturday, September 10, 2011
其实
其实她知道
你不说她也知道
她比你清楚的知道
其实她明白
你不说她也明白
她比你更加的明白
其实
好多话，说不出口，写不出来
所以拥抱的时候
才会抱得紧紧
暗中传达
其实她知道
只不过她不想知道
她宁愿当作赔偿了
她宁愿电话永远不会再响起
永远也不必再烦他会不会回复
因为眼泪打滚时
知道自己是孤单的
总比知道自己不是孤单的，可是却孤单着；
好过
你不说她也知道
她比你清楚的知道
其实她明白
你不说她也明白
她比你更加的明白
其实
好多话，说不出口，写不出来
所以拥抱的时候
才会抱得紧紧
暗中传达
其实她知道
只不过她不想知道
她宁愿当作赔偿了
她宁愿电话永远不会再响起
永远也不必再烦他会不会回复
因为眼泪打滚时
知道自己是孤单的
总比知道自己不是孤单的，可是却孤单着；
好过
其实
你不懂
她有多愿意
她有多宁愿
自己
一个人
消失
你不懂
她有多愿意
她有多宁愿
自己
一个人
消失
Some People
There are many types of people in this world;
as many as they are grains of sand on a beach.
Just off the top of my head,
There are independent ppl, dependent ppl, carefree ppl, worry warts...etc....
I fall somewhere in-between independent and dependent.
Some people, they handle lonely nights very well.
Some people, they can ignore someone they know is not good for them.
Some people, they don't mind nightmares.
Some people, they don't mind going to dinner alone.
Some people, they say what they feel all the time.
Some people, are smart.
Some people, when they say "I'm ok, I can take care of myself."; they really mean it.
Unfortunately, i'm not Some People.
I wish i was. I wish i AM.
But i'm not.
as many as they are grains of sand on a beach.
Just off the top of my head,
There are independent ppl, dependent ppl, carefree ppl, worry warts...etc....
I fall somewhere in-between independent and dependent.
Some people, they handle lonely nights very well.
Some people, they can ignore someone they know is not good for them.
Some people, they don't mind nightmares.
Some people, they don't mind going to dinner alone.
Some people, they say what they feel all the time.
Some people, are smart.
Some people, when they say "I'm ok, I can take care of myself."; they really mean it.
Unfortunately, i'm not Some People.
I wish i was. I wish i AM.
But i'm not.
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Don't stop
Everyone has a person in their lives,
whom they think will never fail them.
You pile all your hopes up on that person,
but when that person fails you,
you don't feel pain
or worse yet - you are not even aware of what you feel
You are simply numb.
It hurts to breath.
Hurts to think.
Hurts to stop.
But it's not painful
because you don't stop long enough to allow yourself to realize you're in pain.
When those once sacred words are downgraded into a pacifier
a simple way to get out of a conversation
the easiest route out of having to say good night
What is it worth anymore?
What is the person you do that to worth to you anymore?
When that infallible person fails you
what else is left？
But to keep moving
keep moving
don't stop
don't stop to feel
don't stop to think
it'll be ok..
it'll be ok...
you'll be ok tmr..
you'll be fine....
you're not alone in the world...
you're just losing the last person you thought would never fail you.
what's the big deal
whom they think will never fail them.
You pile all your hopes up on that person,
but when that person fails you,
you don't feel pain
or worse yet - you are not even aware of what you feel
You are simply numb.
It hurts to breath.
Hurts to think.
Hurts to stop.
But it's not painful
because you don't stop long enough to allow yourself to realize you're in pain.
When those once sacred words are downgraded into a pacifier
a simple way to get out of a conversation
the easiest route out of having to say good night
What is it worth anymore?
What is the person you do that to worth to you anymore?
When that infallible person fails you
what else is left？
But to keep moving
keep moving
don't stop
don't stop to feel
don't stop to think
it'll be ok..
it'll be ok...
you'll be ok tmr..
you'll be fine....
you're not alone in the world...
you're just losing the last person you thought would never fail you.
what's the big deal
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
0
At least once in their lives, a person would ask,
"Why did God create a person like me?"
Summary:
"Weaklings don't deserve to live."
"Why did God create a person like me?"
Summary:
"Weaklings don't deserve to live."
Monday, September 5, 2011
How To Save A Life - The Fray
This is one of my favourite songs of all time...
Every time i listen to it, i feel so touched...
To me, the meaning of the song is:
(Lyrics at the bottom)
Two people who were in love are on the brink of separation. They used to be best friends; there was nothing they couldn't tell each other but try as hard as they may, both of them don't know what went wrong in their relationship. Both of them are also hurting because of the love they lost and as well as because of the friendship they are losing.
This song is depicting their last conversation, their last chance to work things out. It's from the girl's perspective, but you can see that they boy is hurting too.
The beginning of the song is where the girl decides that they have to talk things out. She doesn't want to give up yet and she knows that the boy is aware that their relationship is dying as well.
However, when the last chance to talk out their problems is presented, they find themselves acting like strangers.
She thinks he is irresponsible, and that he has changed for the worst. She loves him a lot and tries to get him to change. She tells him all the things he's doing wrong but he doesn't seem to hear her.
She is certain she is right, that she knows what is best for him (without ever considering that he has a different view). But she knows him well enough to know that he won't listen to her.
He gets tired of her pressing his views on him and begins to raise his voice; arguing with her; she falls quiet; he knows she's waiting for him to apologize, to admit he's wrong; to give in so that they can start all over again; he loves her, but he's tired and so he falls silent too.
His silence gives her the answer she knew she'd receive but did not hope to receive.
And so they break up, losing a lover as well as a best-friend in the process.
If only someone had given in, if only someone was sure what the other person needed, they would have lost nothing.
CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Every time i listen to it, i feel so touched...
To me, the meaning of the song is:
(Lyrics at the bottom)
Two people who were in love are on the brink of separation. They used to be best friends; there was nothing they couldn't tell each other but try as hard as they may, both of them don't know what went wrong in their relationship. Both of them are also hurting because of the love they lost and as well as because of the friendship they are losing.
This song is depicting their last conversation, their last chance to work things out. It's from the girl's perspective, but you can see that they boy is hurting too.
The beginning of the song is where the girl decides that they have to talk things out. She doesn't want to give up yet and she knows that the boy is aware that their relationship is dying as well.
However, when the last chance to talk out their problems is presented, they find themselves acting like strangers.
She thinks he is irresponsible, and that he has changed for the worst. She loves him a lot and tries to get him to change. She tells him all the things he's doing wrong but he doesn't seem to hear her.
She is certain she is right, that she knows what is best for him (without ever considering that he has a different view). But she knows him well enough to know that he won't listen to her.
He gets tired of her pressing his views on him and begins to raise his voice; arguing with her; she falls quiet; he knows she's waiting for him to apologize, to admit he's wrong; to give in so that they can start all over again; he loves her, but he's tired and so he falls silent too.
His silence gives her the answer she knew she'd receive but did not hope to receive.
And so they break up, losing a lover as well as a best-friend in the process.
If only someone had given in, if only someone was sure what the other person needed, they would have lost nothing.
(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IWBzAzqyD9o)
Lyrics:
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
Lyrics:
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came
CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you
CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came
CHORUS:
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
Friday, September 2, 2011
5K散席了
(因为某些原因，照片就只有这么大啦…别埋怨…;p )
大家都上大学去了…各奔东西了…
虽然在2年前，我就已经跑掉去大学了，也预到了大家终有天会散，可是今天，那感觉特别强烈……
大家真的要散了…………
MunMun回Perlis了…
Andrew去Indonesia了…
PooiLing去Perdue U了…
ChiwYee去Sabah了…（虽然是旅行而已）
KeiKei和JJ去KL…（可是100年一定不会叫我喝茶…TT）
豪哥去Melaka了…
AhThoon和AhGirl去Cheras了…
MayYee去Kelantan了…
留在怡保的留在怡保，回去金宝的回去金宝…
Andrew去Indonesia了…
PooiLing去Perdue U了…
ChiwYee去Sabah了…（虽然是旅行而已）
KeiKei和JJ去KL…（可是100年一定不会叫我喝茶…TT）
豪哥去Melaka了…
AhThoon和AhGirl去Cheras了…
MayYee去Kelantan了…
留在怡保的留在怡保，回去金宝的回去金宝…
我们几时才在会有机会在一起好好聊聊，疯狂的玩闹呢？？
每个gang里面，终会有一个努力维持大家关系的那一个谁，
每个gang里面，终会有一个感觉被忽略的那一个谁。
每一班朋友里面，终会有自己的矛盾，
每一班朋友里面，终会有自己的离散。
这个星期，我很开心因为来得及和许多位快要离开怡保的你们好好的聚一聚，
好好的玩闹，好好地谈谈…
可是我真的，真的真的不想到明天…真的真的不想大家离开…也许我自私吧…
可是我知道你们很多都是这么希望的。
最后，祝所有迈向大学人生的你们，
天天开心
学业进步
（单身的）桃花朵朵开
（成对的）幸福美满
还有，
^^!!中秋节快乐!!^^
天天开心
学业进步
（单身的）桃花朵朵开
（成对的）幸福美满
还有，
^^!!中秋节快乐!!^^
还有还有！！！
!!!保持联络!!!
This is an order!!!!
!!!保持联络!!!
This is an order!!!!
Thursday, September 1, 2011
试过了，才会懂得
今天终于有机会和一位好好好朋友谈心了。
好开心，她好像找到自己的幸福了。希望她能好好把握～快快乐乐，幸幸福福的和她爱的人在一起^^
我劝她接受他的时候，告诉了她：
当说服她时，是用自己的经验的。
我试过了，不成功。所以我的引诱没有那么的大了。
可是并不代表没有引诱。
今天吃饭的时候想起了在马六甲的那段时光。
他懂我爱喝什么
懂夹菜给我
虽然短暂，可是确实是幸福的。
试过了，就懂了，
可是那并不代表不怀念的…
怀念着美好的时光，会让自己更快乐吧…
很庆幸，依然是朋友
我得不到的幸福，希望全世界渴望爱情的人都得到^^
好开心，她好像找到自己的幸福了。希望她能好好把握～快快乐乐，幸幸福福的和她爱的人在一起^^
我劝她接受他的时候，告诉了她：
“你不试，怎么会懂结果会是怎样呢？如果试了，还是不成功的话，你可以说服自己，已经试了，不行，那引诱也不会那么的大了。”
当说服她时，是用自己的经验的。
我试过了，不成功。所以我的引诱没有那么的大了。
可是并不代表没有引诱。
今天吃饭的时候想起了在马六甲的那段时光。
他懂我爱喝什么
懂夹菜给我
虽然短暂，可是确实是幸福的。
试过了，就懂了，
可是那并不代表不怀念的…
怀念着美好的时光，会让自己更快乐吧…
很庆幸，依然是朋友
我得不到的幸福，希望全世界渴望爱情的人都得到^^
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Depression?
They say that those who are sick will never admit that they are sick, just like those who are drunk will never admit they are drunk neither.
I guess that if you believe in this theory, then i am definitely not depressed.
But if you don't believe, than i might be heading down the road of depression.
But then, it might be my pre-exam stress talking.
BUT then again, taking an easy way out is always the better choice in difficult situations or realities isn't it?
Did a little research today and found this on9:
But then and again, it might just be the stress talking.
Who knows...mb one day i'll say "I'm not depressed."
And then you should be worried.
I guess that if you believe in this theory, then i am definitely not depressed.
But if you don't believe, than i might be heading down the road of depression.
But then, it might be my pre-exam stress talking.
BUT then again, taking an easy way out is always the better choice in difficult situations or realities isn't it?
Did a little research today and found this on9:
Common signs and symptoms of depression
- Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. A bleak outlook—nothing will ever get better and there’s nothing you can do to improve your situation.
- Loss of interest in daily activities. No interest in former hobbies, pastimes, social activities, or sex. You’ve lost your ability to feel joy and pleasure.
- Appetite or weight changes. Significant weight loss or weight gain—a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month.
- Sleep changes. Either insomnia, especially waking in the early hours of the morning, or oversleeping (also known as hypersomnia).
- Anger or irritability. Feeling agitated, restless, or even violent. Your tolerance level is low, your temper short, and everything and everyone gets on your nerves.
- Loss of energy. Feeling fatigued, sluggish, and physically drained. Your whole body may feel heavy, and even small tasks are exhausting or take longer to complete.
- Self-loathing. Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt. You harshly criticize yourself for perceived faults and mistakes.
- Reckless behavior. You engage in escapist behavior such as substance abuse, compulsive gambling, reckless driving, or dangerous sports.
- Concentration problems. Trouble focusing, making decisions, or remembering things.
- Unexplained aches and pains. An increase in physical complaints such as headaches, back pain, aching muscles, and stomach pain.
But then and again, it might just be the stress talking.
Who knows...mb one day i'll say "I'm not depressed."
And then you should be worried.
Friday, August 26, 2011
Great News!!! (IGEM)
Got some wonderful news today!!!
Our Television Production 1 lecturer Miss Foo 'persuaded' our whole class to enter a 'save the environment' video competition called Dare to Dream a few months ago.
To tell the truth, almost all of us were skeptical about the contest; who'd believe we stand a chance of winning？ 0.0
But in order to successfully 'persuade' us, Miss Foo altered our assignment requirements to fit the requirements of the contest so that it became a situation where "Why not enter? Since we're already doing everything according to the contest...=.="
To cut the long story short, after toiling in our group of 3 to create a garbage monster and stressing over imperfect shots and fire ants crawling in shirts and all that, conclusion is, my group got shortlisted.
The moment my group member called me to inform me of our success, i was elated.
"OMG!!! WTH!!! We got shortlisted??!!!! OMG!!!!!!!"
Therefore, i'm going to write my shortlisted-therefore-possible-winner thank you speech here:
Thank You to Miss Foo first and foremost,
for 'persuading' us to join this competition,
for helping us whenever we had any trouble; no matter how small; with the assignment,
for giving us emotional support throughout these months,
for always giving us great advice.
for 'persuading' us to join this competition,
for helping us whenever we had any trouble; no matter how small; with the assignment,
for giving us emotional support throughout these months,
for always giving us great advice.
Thank You NATALIE
for sacrificing her precious flesh to the fire ants,
for handling the camera so well,
for spending countless hours in front of the MAC editing our footage for us,
for standing up to that horrible guard,
for always being surpportive.
for sacrificing her precious flesh to the fire ants,
for handling the camera so well,
for spending countless hours in front of the MAC editing our footage for us,
for standing up to that horrible guard,
for always being surpportive.
Thank You YEE LING
for sacrificing her car and converting it into a rubbish dump to accommodate our garbage monster,
for taking care of us,
making sure we never miss any details,
for finding such a beautiful venue (even though it din work out),
for being the person who called me to tell me the great news
for sacrificing her car and converting it into a rubbish dump to accommodate our garbage monster,
for taking care of us,
making sure we never miss any details,
for finding such a beautiful venue (even though it din work out),
for being the person who called me to tell me the great news
Thank You to Allen, my brother,
for giving us ideas on how to improve our idea,
for hiding his bulk behind a tree crawling with fire ants to work as our volunteer prop master
for giving us ideas on how to improve our idea,
for hiding his bulk behind a tree crawling with fire ants to work as our volunteer prop master
To everyone else i did not mention here, i did not forget you as well.
!!!!!!WE DARE TO DREAM!!!!!
26/8
About to bath then set off for work.
Today will be what i expect to be my last day on the job, gave my notice last last week.
Although i'll mizz the kids a lot, still, working on Friday is just too inconvenient for me.
If the boss has a slot on Thursday, i should be able to make it.
Had a splitting headache just now, so had to skip my presentation and left it to my groupmates.
Thank God they were all so understanding and the lecturer was cool with it too ( i guess my white lips and the statement 'i think i want to vomit' convinced them to juz let me go )
Seems like i haven gotten over my stomach's aversion to too much Starbucks yet.
Oh well....guess too much of a good thing is bad for you...
Still feeling a little queasy right now...0.0
Going to Station 1 to listen to my friend sing later^^
Haven heard him sing in so long~
Hope it will be a good night^^
Today will be what i expect to be my last day on the job, gave my notice last last week.
Although i'll mizz the kids a lot, still, working on Friday is just too inconvenient for me.
If the boss has a slot on Thursday, i should be able to make it.
Had a splitting headache just now, so had to skip my presentation and left it to my groupmates.
Thank God they were all so understanding and the lecturer was cool with it too ( i guess my white lips and the statement 'i think i want to vomit' convinced them to juz let me go )
Seems like i haven gotten over my stomach's aversion to too much Starbucks yet.
Oh well....guess too much of a good thing is bad for you...
Still feeling a little queasy right now...0.0
Going to Station 1 to listen to my friend sing later^^
Haven heard him sing in so long~
Hope it will be a good night^^
Thursday, August 25, 2011
献给“骚货”
这个短文章是献给某位在别人的布拉格糟蹋自己的蠢人。
为什么这个世界上就是有这么没脑袋的人呢？
真不懂这个人是怎么中学毕业的，还是他的智商就只呆在中学阶层。
不不不…他的智商应该就只有小学程度。
依照我的推断，这位在别人布拉格糟蹋自己的，明显是一个低B，理解能力低，冲动，没有生活依靠，没有精神依靠，精神稍微有点问题，没有判断力，语文超烂（所以只好写华文让他可以比较容易明白），而且是社会低阶乘的人士。
这个人呢，应该没有经济能力，也没有踏实稳定的工作，所以才可以非常得空的在人家的布拉格糟蹋自己。
其实我对于这位0智商人士的身份有大概的猜测，只不过猜测不方便透露。
在此请这位脑袋缺陷的人士请别弄肮脏我的布拉格。你的观光让我觉得我的文字受侮辱了。
假如你有不明的怨气想要发泄的话，请大力点撞向墙壁自我了断，相信这世界没有人会想念一个这么让人恶心的你的。
最后，这位人士，我不好欺负，不要再惹我。我的布拉格不是让你发泄你低能的怨气的地方。若真的对我有不满的话，请把自己的姓名报上来，再告诉我幼儿园智商的你幻想了我做了什么对不起你的事。请试着用文明的方式解决你的低能问题吧，别再这样糟蹋自己了，让家人知道你这么白痴的行为的话，他们会伤心的。生块叉烧都好过生你。
为什么这个世界上就是有这么没脑袋的人呢？
真不懂这个人是怎么中学毕业的，还是他的智商就只呆在中学阶层。
不不不…他的智商应该就只有小学程度。
依照我的推断，这位在别人布拉格糟蹋自己的，明显是一个低B，理解能力低，冲动，没有生活依靠，没有精神依靠，精神稍微有点问题，没有判断力，语文超烂（所以只好写华文让他可以比较容易明白），而且是社会低阶乘的人士。
这个人呢，应该没有经济能力，也没有踏实稳定的工作，所以才可以非常得空的在人家的布拉格糟蹋自己。
其实我对于这位0智商人士的身份有大概的猜测，只不过猜测不方便透露。
在此请这位脑袋缺陷的人士请别弄肮脏我的布拉格。你的观光让我觉得我的文字受侮辱了。
假如你有不明的怨气想要发泄的话，请大力点撞向墙壁自我了断，相信这世界没有人会想念一个这么让人恶心的你的。
最后，这位人士，我不好欺负，不要再惹我。我的布拉格不是让你发泄你低能的怨气的地方。若真的对我有不满的话，请把自己的姓名报上来，再告诉我幼儿园智商的你幻想了我做了什么对不起你的事。请试着用文明的方式解决你的低能问题吧，别再这样糟蹋自己了，让家人知道你这么白痴的行为的话，他们会伤心的。生块叉烧都好过生你。
Pop Music. Yuck...0.0
What on earth is happening to music?
I believe a lot of people have the same habit of leaving their radios on when you turn off the car engine, so when you restart your engine, the first thing you hear is blaring music from your stereo.
When I started my car just now, the first tune that blared at me was “boy boy boy boy boy boy boy boy boy boy boy friend, your boy boy boy boy boy boy boy boy boy friend”, (trust me, there is a youtube video out there going "girl girl girl girl girl girl girl girl girl girl girl friend =.=) within 2 seconds, immense irritation caused me to change the station. I was then greeted with Eminem and Dr. Dre’s “I need a Doctor”.
That song is so abused by the radio that you can now hear it playing about twice an hour. The song is acceptable by itself (for the first 3 times you hear it), but with all the bleeped out foul language in the song, it’s just plain irritating. Why on earth would a song that focuses on Dr. Dre’s incredible foul-word-incorporated rapping skills be aired on radio so many times when you know the foul words MUST be bleeped out??? It makes no sense at all.
So then I changed to a Chinese station. I was lucky enough to hear the beginning of the song instead of the chorus, but the opening itself made me open my mouth in horror. Mostly, songs only reach the irritating level in their choruses, but this song gets the cake. It was so badly written that I switched off my radio at the third line.
The song started with “Why are your eyes avoiding my eyes?”
In chinese: 为什么你的眼睛避着我的眼睛?
Excuse me, do you lack better words to explain the situation? It sounds so tacky and…cheap…0.0
Why can’t music go back to its roots? When the songs actually tell a story, when the lyrics actually made sense and the radio didn’t abuse songs so much.
Some of the few pop-culture artists I like are Taylor Swift and Eminem. Their songs always tell stories, and they seldom repeat their lines needlessly, especially Eminem.
Bands like The Fray, Snow Patrol and Life House are some of the good ole’ makers of music. Their songs never get old and every time you listen to them, you get a new revelation.
Why can’t music go back to being that? Sign…I’m scared of my radio now…too much ridiculous music might rot my brain….0.0
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
我回来了
在家待了5天5夜后，又回来PJ了。
开心的是，很多还没有处理的事可以处理了。
不开心的事，房间有蚂蚁。还有，回到来了，会有种莫名其妙的孤单…
莫名其妙的，又寂寞了。
可是回了家一趟，让我看清了，明白了，
多孤单，多寂寞，都好，
都不能再做一些到最后会伤害自己的事情了。
有时很好奇，到底有多少个人会读我的布拉格呢？
嗯～头开始痛了～睡觉咯～
晚安
开心的是，很多还没有处理的事可以处理了。
不开心的事，房间有蚂蚁。还有，回到来了，会有种莫名其妙的孤单…
莫名其妙的，又寂寞了。
可是回了家一趟，让我看清了，明白了，
多孤单，多寂寞，都好，
都不能再做一些到最后会伤害自己的事情了。
有时很好奇，到底有多少个人会读我的布拉格呢？
嗯～头开始痛了～睡觉咯～
晚安
Sunday, August 21, 2011
……
也许因为我相信了
也许因为我有期望了
也许因为我期待了
所以我跌到伤了
也许伤口还没愈合的
也许身体承受不了新的伤口
所以身心才会这么的疲倦
所以才会想闭上眼睛
忘记全世界
女孩：你记得吗？很久以前，我哭着问你，为什么他说爱我，却要伤害我？你记得那时你说什么吗？
男孩：嗯…我说我不会再让你哭…
女孩：那现在我问你,为什么你说在乎我，却要伤害我呢？
你，给到我答案吗？
也许因为我有期望了
也许因为我期待了
所以我跌到伤了
也许伤口还没愈合的
也许身体承受不了新的伤口
所以身心才会这么的疲倦
所以才会想闭上眼睛
忘记全世界
女孩：你记得吗？很久以前，我哭着问你，为什么他说爱我，却要伤害我？你记得那时你说什么吗？
男孩：嗯…我说我不会再让你哭…
女孩：那现在我问你,为什么你说在乎我，却要伤害我呢？
你，给到我答案吗？
我不是圣人。早安
我不是圣人，我不是superwoman.
反反复复的，对大家都造成了伤害……
I want to believe i've supernatural powers so badly...
but the truth is, i don't.
I'm just like every other girl out there in the world; filled to the brim with unease and doubts and fears.
"Good Morning", how hard can it be?
When you wake up, the first thing you do is to look at the time.
usually using ur phone, after you look at the time on your phone,
press "new message" and type in "Good Morning" then send it to the girl you claim you care so much about.
How hard can it be?
Don't keep running back and forth and then saying "我不知道那个‘早安’对你这么重要嘛…"
when i specifically told you i need a good morning to feel like someone is missing me
Don't say "不要为了这么小的事情这样好不要？那我会觉得你好敷衍咯…你当我是什么哦？"
Excuse me, 我告诉过你这对我很重要，知道了都不做，还要找我吵，你当我是什么？
Don't say "我很在乎你的…"
You can't even give me a "Good Morning", eventhough you know it's important to me, 你会有多在乎我哦？
我们之间的问题不止“早安”这么简单。
还有很多很多。
反反复复的，对大家都造成了伤害……
I want to believe i've supernatural powers so badly...
but the truth is, i don't.
I'm just like every other girl out there in the world; filled to the brim with unease and doubts and fears.
"Good Morning", how hard can it be?
When you wake up, the first thing you do is to look at the time.
usually using ur phone, after you look at the time on your phone,
press "new message" and type in "Good Morning" then send it to the girl you claim you care so much about.
How hard can it be?
Don't keep running back and forth and then saying "我不知道那个‘早安’对你这么重要嘛…"
when i specifically told you i need a good morning to feel like someone is missing me
Don't say "不要为了这么小的事情这样好不要？那我会觉得你好敷衍咯…你当我是什么哦？"
Excuse me, 我告诉过你这对我很重要，知道了都不做，还要找我吵，你当我是什么？
Don't say "我很在乎你的…"
You can't even give me a "Good Morning", eventhough you know it's important to me, 你会有多在乎我哦？
说过不会让我哭
说过不会让我伤心
说过你会改
说过重新来过，却不到4天就找我吵。
说过不会让我伤心
说过你会改
说过重新来过，却不到4天就找我吵。
我们之间的问题不止“早安”这么简单。
还有很多很多。
当眼泪流下的那一刻，我们就已经真正的结束了。
～不想再为任何人流泪～
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Train Coaches for singles!!!! (Warning: This is a Rant)
(Written while fuming during my journey back home from KL)
I went to Midvalley the other day and took the KTM train for the second time since my 2 years in KL. Before I saw that specific coach, I had long before heard that the government had proposed separate coaches for males and females; if I’m not wrong, this policy apply to LRTs as well. So, back to the KTM train, when the train arrived, I saw 2 coaches labeled “Female Coach” or something along those lines.
I’m currently sitting on the ETS train bound for my hometown and I’m thinking that having an ETS train specifically for ladies may not be a bad idea after all. Or better yet, please have a coach labeled “For Single People Only”. Of course, the ticket price would be the same and the ticket purchasing optional. I’m sure a lot of people would be thrilled if this suggestion came into effect. In particular, people like me.
It’s so irritating to see couples all lovey-dovey and going “Ooo~you’ve got hair on your arm…teehee…” or “My….What silky hands you have…I’m so glad they’re mine to hold..” or some corny crap like that. Oh please…If your guy doesn’t have hair on his arms, he’s gay; or might as well be. And of course her hands are silky smooth! She applies lotion to her hand 10 times a day! But of course, let’s not forget the fact that you’d lie through your teeth to get to hold her hand. Reason being you’re so infatuated with her right now. Give it 1 more year, and you won’t even care of her hands are as beautiful as a hand model’s.
Think I sound cynical?
Well, yes, I am cynical. I’m not afraid of admitting that.
God…it’s just so annoying to see these lovey-dovey, happy cheery people. I just texted my friend who usually accompanies me on my trip home; since we live close by; and she said at least the person sitting next to me is not a fat guy snoring in his sleep.
Well, I’d take the fat guy any day.
First of all, ignore his size and let’s concentrate on the fact that he’s asleep. Eyes closed, far gone in La La Land. At least I won’t have to worry about anyone peeping at me ranting on my lappie and risk them calling security or slinking further up against the window in fear of my sudden explosion when they see what I’m writing. But then I guess my furious tap-tap-tapping is raising alarms already. I can tell I’ve got the attention of the lead talents in my current rant. They’ve been eyeing my lappie-key-flying fingers for a while now. Anxious attention or curiosity? I’ve yet to find out.
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