Believe

For You,

Sometimes, I wonder about the distance
sometimes, I wonder about the truth of the situation
sometimes, I wonder if it's all that we've cooked it up to be

And then I say something,
and you listen
but you don't just listen,
You Hear Me

And something happens,
and you're not just a shoulder to cry on
You offer solutions and alternatives
no matter how absurd

And you would give up,
what you have always wanted,
in my best interests.
Because you have decided,
I'm what you've always wanted.

And then,
I don't wonder anymore.

I believe

Today started out alright. But ended with me being physically and semi-emotionally drained.
Class at 8. Was Comm Law class so couldn't afford to skip.
6.30am - had freezing cold bath, left house at 7.10, reach school at 7.20, found parking space, phone call, got down, class.
10am - class finished, went to eat, went to class, went for meeting
2pm - went for class, phone call, went to gym
En Route to gym - moronic van driver, almost accident 1
Gym - worked out worked out, hot bath. <3
En Route to dinner from gym - cowardly motorcyclist, sharp bend, almost accident 2
Home - Skype, no visuals, voice of a stranger, heart attack 3
Now - Boh strength anymore....
Lord....

Momentary panic attack

You know you've been hit bad when someone disappears for half a second and you panic.
Still, if that someone panics as much as you do because you're panicking,
it hits you again,
Panicking is worth it.
<3

nothing

Valentines 2012

Valentine's Day 2012.
Quite eventful I would say.
Got some beautiful flowers and wonderful gifts~
Got some wonderful news from a good friend of mine (SUPER HAPPY FOR YOU!!! <3 )

A lot of happiness and a lot of stress and complications have piled up these few days.
Not that they're all bad...
I shall treat them as character building.
Still, was a reasonably happy valentines day.

Until someone climbed over my gate and scared the crap out of me at 2am...==

Sick Cycle Carousel

We're spinning in a circle.
Round and round and round and back again and round and round and round and back again.

The highs are really high
and the lows almost kill us when we hit the beams

When we're up there,
we ride the waves of pure happiness
we get giddy from the joy and elation
we are drunk

When we're down here,
we see the glaring truth
we fight suspicion and insecurities
we try to survive

It's a sick cycle carousel
we're spinning round and round and round

I'm afraid that it will end with us getting sick and wanting off the ride.

I wonder who will give up first...

We seem to get closer to hitting the fan every time...

"Sick Cycle Carousel"
- Lifehouse

Birthday Month!!

A new semester has started.
Having a couple of interesting subjects that i'm quite sure i'll ace if i pay attention and work for it. Which I'll TRY to force myself to do. ;p
It's officially the first day of my birthday month too.
Pretty excited this year~I'm finally turning 21! Erm....yeah? or Boohoo? Haven quite decided yet. :p
My birthday is officially in 7 days. 7th or February.
Maybe should not be too enthusiastic about it...but then...
Have already gotten my present from my darling Bestie <3
More prezzies ordered by my other darling Grizzly Bear as well. Can't wait to get em~~
We share more or less the same eccentric or unusual tastes, so getting stuff from em always puts me in a better than good mood. Especially loves the books^^ But hopefully not books this time...I have yet to finish those from Christmas~:p
One of the things I'm looking forward to most are a pair of SkulCandy headphones. I chose em myself, but they're en route, so won't reach me so fast~~Ooooer~~~suspense!!! <3
Looking forward to surprise from a particular someone too. He seems to be really into surprises lately~ Hope I'm not dissappointed.
Wonder if D will even wish me a Happy Birthday this year...So many things have changed...But i really hope to hear from that dude...Miss em always~~
Parents already gave me my present - the traditional bday gift for a 21yr old - a key.
It was supposed to be gold, but I was adamant that it be white gold instead. Will not run the risk of it being ripped off my throat.
All in all...Just really really excited bout my birthday...
Can't help it...been really in love with birthdays since I was a kid.
Birthdays are meant to be celebrated!!!

On the other hand, getting increasingly stressed about Utar Ball on 3rd of March.
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Ahhrrrgggghhh~~Not gonna think bout it. ==