30.10.12

Haven't blogged in forever.
A lot happened recently, with my family and friends and love life as well.
Not everything can be perfect, but then I suppose imperfection makes you value the rare perfect moments in life.
Even though I say that, I still wish that things can be perfect in one aspect.

I want a balance.
Isn't that what everyone wants? - A balance

Have been having insomnia these past 2 days.
I wonder if it's because of my odd sleeping schedule or because there's so much on my mind.

My brains swirls and twirls and spins and runs all over the place when I lay down.
I think, and wonder, and try, to find a way, to achieve a balance.

I have always striven to be the best, to do my best, in everything that I do.
or at least I try to motivate myself to strive to be the best
to achieve what others can't

Yes, I put pressure on myself.

But how do you motivate yourself without stress?

Sometimes I'm so scared...
A simple sentence can strike me like a lighting bolt.

Like Spinning Gasing

I guess this is just a piece of something no one will understand 

07.10.12

There is something about the darkness that draws out the demons and their kin. There is something increasingly pathetic about feeling lonely in a crowded place. There is something wrong with her. Duality, i love that song