Rainy Day

Woke up this morning to rain again.
Why is it raining almost every morning recently?
It's very inconvenient...Especially when you've got tons of stuff to take and a humongous umbrella to carry in the other hand.
The last time it rained (last monday), I threw a fit and was in a bad mood the whole day.
But eventhough today started out pretty bad as well, surprisingly i wasn't moody. Guess ytdy's sunshine shone through a bit....~^.^~
This morning, i woke up at bout 8 and went to bath at 8.30, while i was in the bath, i heard weird sounds (water pelting down the roof) and i thought to myself "God...pls don't be raining...I'm taking the bus!!"
When i came out from the bath, Tada! It's raining cats and dogs!
Eventhough things were looking bleak, i was still intent on taking the bus.
Then i went though the routine blah blah blah...and was about to step out the door into the hail outside when i realise "Oh damn! I left my umbrella in the car!"
As i was brainstorming for alternatives, i realise that i was never going to last 10 minutes out in the storm with the tiny ah po umbrella i found hidden under my shoe rack, so i grabbed my car keys and the ah po umbrella and headed out.
The thing about rainy days is, everything that can go wrong usually will.
Turns out i parked my car too close to the tree and so i could not fully open my driver's seat door. That, plus the fact that i had to squeeze an umbrella as well as my medium sized butt through the tiny crack between the door and the tree trunk through, was nearly impossible.
So i closed my umbrella and took a light shower before climbing into the car.
When i reached skul, there was no parking. No surprise there....=.=
So i double parked and climbed out.
The rest of the day was ok.
But rainy days are reli smtg...

最佳损友

近来从新爱上这首歌了。
他的歌词超有意思的

“问我有没有，确实也没有，一直躲避的借口，非什么大仇”

其实真的不是有什么大仇，曾经是好友的两个人为什么会转眼间就不再是好友呢？为什么要一直避开对方呢？对啊，真的不是有什么大仇。可是像我朋友所说的，就是有了心病。撕虽然不是什么大仇，可是也已经不能像以前那样了。

“总好于那天我，没有，没有，遇过某某”

以前我会想，如果我没有遇见过那个人那该有多好呢~如果从来没发生过那该有多好呢~可是现在的我觉得，总好过我从来都没有认识过他，因为他教会了我好多。让我学会了好多事。是他让我成长了。所以虽然一切都改变了，多总好过没发生过。同时也要感谢每一个为难过我的人，讨厌过我的人，欺负过我的人，看不起我的人，伤害我的人。如果没有你们，也就没有今天活得比你们好的我。

“却没有人像你让我眼泪背着留严重像情侣说分手”

这20年来，就只有一个人让我这样子。以前，我形容我们的关系的时候，真的是用“分手”这2个字来形容的。因为我们的关系真的曾经是那么的好，可是因为一些琐碎的事情就变质了。你是我第一个best friend，永生难忘。还好我们和好了~还好我们复合了~^^

太好听的一首歌了~

朋友不是这样当的

觉得是爸爸的遗传，蔡家的人，对朋友就是特别的好。
“朋友”好象是我写布拉格的第N次的标题了。
你是我的朋友，就是我的朋友。
能做我的好朋友，我会不惜为你付出我所能的一切。
就算你踏过线了，我都会原谅。
可是反反复复的……
你当我是什么？
对不起，可是反复太多次了。
原谅也无谓了。因为你不觉得你有错。
也真的觉得自己很傻。
就是想告诉自己你是好人。
其实你根本不是。
也许从来就不是。
也许慢慢地变成不是了。
我也不清楚。
也许我从未真正的了解你吧……
可是现在我很确定，自从你说了那4个字，我们就已经完蛋了。
嗯……其实我们早就完蛋了
有人告诉我，朋友不是这样当的。
我同意。
所以，再也没有"我们"了。

婚姻不是拿来玩的

picture from dianping.com

慢半拍的我今天才确定谢霆锋和张柏芝离婚了。
看了新闻报道以后，真的很生气张柏芝。
为什么好好的老公，漂亮的孩子，这么美好的婚姻都可以不要？
可是也许还有内情吧……这些不能多加评论……

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今天写布拉格的重点是，“婚姻不是拿来玩的”
你和你爱的人签字，在大家的面前发誓的是要爱她/他一辈子，
接受他的缺点，礼让他的任性，爱他的一切。
重点：礼让=迁就=忍耐
对我来说，结婚，就代表着你已经认定了那个人。
代表着你愿意忍耐他的缺点，接受他的一切，愿意陪他度过难熬的日子，愿意和他相守终身。
代表着你会尊重他，爱护他，试着了解他。
近来身边有人结婚了，我超羡慕的…
有哪个女生不想啊？和自己认定了的爱人一辈子在一起～
可是羡慕归羡慕，我并不渴求。也不会强求。
我觉得女生应该在大概27岁之前结婚。男生在大概30吧。
男生没有能力养家，谁敢要？
女生不会照顾家庭，谁敢要？
男生思想不成熟，不愿意脚踏实地工作，谁敢要？
女生思想不成熟，想要结了婚马上当少奶奶（有工人呼唤那种），谁敢要？
男身没有耐心，不会忍让，体谅老婆，谁敢要？
女生天天发小姐脾气，一哭二闹三上吊，谁敢要？
两个人在一起，重要的东西要讨论，私人的空间要存在，一定要信任对方（难道你愿意跟一个你不相信的人一辈子？？）
结婚前一定要有计划，结婚了要和家公家婆或亲家住吗？几时生宝宝？要生宝宝吗？老婆结婚后要工作吗？等等等等
也许大家会觉得我这样子很老套吧…思想已经远远地超越我的年龄了。可是我就是这样子想的。
结婚，不是一时冲动的事。
老公，要懂得疼爱老婆，要可靠
老婆，要懂得疼爱老公，要顾家
2个人在一起，如果被认定了的话，如果被确认了的话，就结婚吧^^

～认定了，就在一起一辈子吧～

又一天

Today was interesting i suppose...
It was a day with some 莫名其妙的成分 as usual.
It started out with me going to Uni at 7.15am when my class was 10am so that:

1) I could get a parking space
2) I could do some "stuff"

So there i sat, in my car, at 7.15am, in a beautiful parking spot, staring at the other cars with my not-enough-sleep-zombie-eyes, and wondering why the hell did i come to Uni so early again??? 0.0
As i pondered that question, i realized it was getting hot in the car and using the engine while in a stationary position for so long is not good, so i got out of the car and went to the reading room.
Including me, there were 7 ppl in the reading room (Point: It was 7.45am.)
Of these other 6 ppl, 2 were chatting reasonably quietly, while the other 4 acting like they were in a pasar and as if they did not realise that being so freaking loud so freaking early in the morning can cause other people migraines.
So i left before i could get one.
Then i went to the computer lab, waited for the computer to use FOREVER to load, then played Solitaire because the ICTC wasn't open yet and there was no internet connection.
And then i went for breakfast at Tappers cuz i yearn for their coffee. And my friend happened to be there too.

~~~~~

After class and group discussion, i went home.
I was freaking tired today, but still went to pasar mlm and then to vry 莫名其妙的 went to dinner with someone i haven't went out with in a long time.
We went to dinner in a motorcycle and he kept asking if i was scared (cuz i've been in a motor accident b4), but i kept insisting i wasn't.
It wasn't until i almost reached home that i realised that i wasn't afraid of a speeding motorcycle, but i'm terrified when the motorcycle is taking a corner, even in medium speed. Go figure...=.=
After that, my friend suggested v go to Snowflake, and so although i was vry tired, 莫名其妙的，我答应了。And so we went for round 2 right after dinner...=.=
Snowflake conclusion: I prefer 100yen shop's Ice...=.=

And so my day of 胃痛+过量咖啡后遗症+莫名其妙的疲累+莫名其妙的3小时之晚餐ended.

～～～我的每一天都充满了莫名其妙呀～～～

小小感想：虽然疲累，可是偶尔疲累的过活才能感受到自己真正的活着。^^

Goodnight

A reality hit me today,
--the sound of my laughter seems unreal.
It would be going to a length to say it's fake,
because it isn't
but it is not real neither.
a whole new world of logic..
Or may be am i being too paranoid?
afterall, i AM hypersensitive, - not like a bat, but not in a good way neither.
Revisited the vague thought of sleeping with the lights on again
but it's no good.
I've visited that thought many times, but have never put it in action even once.
Reason being i dislike sleeping with light in my eyes too much
Hence i sleep curled up in a ball.
Like a dumpling or a caterpillar in a cocoon.
I sleep well protected by my blanket and the weight of my huge pillow on top of me.
It's gotten to the point where i can no longer sleep well without something heavy or of weight weighing down on me anymore.
Yesterday, a certain someone asked "Why are you so insecure?"
After you've given me all the promises in the world, and have even started to act on them,
why am i still so insecure?
Well, have you ever thought it's maybe because you broke your promises too many times?
But that's besides the point.
I never could find the reason by this incurable disease of mine.
Funny though,
I was never abandoned as a child, although i might have been used to being ostracized by my peers since primary school.
It sucks to be different. Back then i mean.
Or is my condition due to the fact that i know too much about reality?
Whatever it may be because of,
i want to sleep with the lights on again tonight.
But knowing myself, i'll probably settle for being a cocoon again instead.
Goodnight.

让我安心的人

房间里有1张椅子，1张桌子，1张床。
我坐到床上去看书了，看着空空的椅子，
突然发现，
房间好空。
椅子上应该是坐着人的
我们可以不说话，
可以各做各的东西。
偶尔抬头，可以看见他
只要有个可以让我安心的人在就好了…
好想…
电话拿起来，
有个固定的号码可以播去投诉
有个固定的人可以任由我撒娇
不会嫌我烦
不，
是
可以让我撒娇，而我不会觉得烦到人的
一个可以让我安心的人……
你在哪里？？

生日聚会

前几天和朋友们有了一个小聚会，
玩得好开心哦~
这次聪明了，在回去之前说了我没交通，然后好友来载我了。都没嫌远呢~^^
这次有位朋友生日，我就出主意买了吹不息的蜡烛来玩。
结果得到的教训是〉〉〉以后最好在寿星到了以后才点蜡烛。
那小小的蛋糕上就好像火灾一样~幸好大家帮手帮脚~几个吹，几个拔~不然可能连人家的店子也烧垮了~（开玩笑的）
那天我们好像麻烦了店子里的服务员，要这个要那个的~
还好他们没有发飚~
那天我遇到了好多好久没有见的朋友们，
感觉上大家都变了，都成熟了，却比以前更加亲切了，（也许太久没见了）
可是也有人让我觉得保留在那种lala的阶层逃不出来。
拜托~
我们在Capucino Cafe吃儿童餐庆祝了以后就换场了。
跑了去我家附近的Oriental喝茶，
然后就很莫名其妙地说起恐怖片来了。
接下来就莫名其妙的讨论几时去pub。
然后再莫名其妙的说到其中一位男性朋友请印尼女佣照顾他。
最后就很理所当然的回家了。
可是很莫名其妙的上了莫名其妙的人的车。
还好安全到达，毫无损伤。
我的生命真的充满了莫名其妙~
这次回到去可以和大家玩得这么开心真的是一大喜事呀~~~
好少机会可以让大家如此的聚在一堂~
希望以后还有机会哦~~

生日快乐哦AhThoon！！