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Friday, October 28, 2011

请把贝壳粉碎

贝壳真的真的真的好希望可以被粉碎掉
因为只有粉碎了的贝壳才不会有感觉

有没有考虑过
其实贝壳并不爱当贝壳

其实贝壳也想要有自己的天空

贝壳宁愿自己看恐怖片
然后失眠
也不要期待有人陪她看恐怖片
却白等

贝壳想要自由
好想好想
好像好想好想

就拜托
有谁要吧贝壳粉碎了

贝壳其实讨厌贝壳

你永远都不会明白
贝壳有多讨厌贝壳
贝壳有多讨厌当贝壳

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

散散步

好几天没有写布拉格了~
其实这几天都有事情发生,比如去了team building camp玩得好开心却弄得满身伤啊~
还有喉咙好痛~声音跑掉了啊~
可是想在突然想写的都不关于这些,而关于另外一些。
嘻嘻嘻~

今天是Deepavali。就是放假啊~
学校当然就没有课了。所以我就慌在家里没事做啊~
现在早上9.30am
一个美好的假日,我为什么这么早就醒来了呢?
答案是因为我今早运动去了。
今早和海洋到Taman Lembah Kinta去跑步了(其实算是漫步,因为贝壳和海洋昨晚都夜睡,根本没力跑~)
其实那个公园贝壳去过,上次去哪儿拍广告做背景。
可惜贝壳不懂原来运动前是要先吃点东西打低的,
所以跑到一半肚子不舒服,想吐~
所以散步就变慢步了~
其实贝壳真的很不舒服,可是不想扫海洋的兴,所以加油继续了。
海洋看到贝壳不舒服,有问候问候,
可是,海洋,你知道吗?你跑得好快,贝壳没力跑了,却也没力抓着你,而你也没有停下来让贝壳依靠。
感觉到的,那一刻,头搭在肩膀上,你的脚步移开了……

过后跑完第二个圈了,就去吃早餐咯~
海洋说要吃炒粉,贝壳开心因为不用烦要吃什么,可是,贝壳可是声音还是很沙哑的,真的要吃炒粉吗?
到了以后,原来是经济粉。还好还好~
贝壳要求加curry,其实知道喉咙不舒服,可是就是想吃啊~
海洋没有阻止。
海洋是哪一种“爱吃什么吃饱它,谁管你会不会病死”的人
说“你是哪种不会管人的人啦~”的时候,突然想到,
如果是以前的那个他,喉咙痛,还吃curry,他的眉头该会皱得死死的了吧?
还会唠唠叨叨的呢~
可是就是因为他老爱唠叨我,而且是从来不会嫌烦,所以我知道他在乎我。^^
不说那个他了。

其实贝壳真的不懂海洋在想什么
真的是海底针
可是也没什么不好
比朋友好一点,却比恋人差好多
其实我能接受啦~
就继续飘吧~

可是真的不懂今天要干什么好~TT

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Perceptions on Maturity

They say that Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
Well, I say that Maturity is in the eyes of the beholder as well.

Many people have a different a perception towards maturity,
some think that a person who gets affronted by a casual joke is immature,
but on the other hand,
everyone's perception towards a 'casual joke' is different.

Some may think that a person who collects Hello Kittys are immature,
but on the other hand,
everyone has different passions, likes and dislikes.

Some may think that girls who pout because their boyfriends are too busy working to be with them are immature,
but then everybody has different personalities,
some are independent and don't mind being left alone sometimes while others mind very much.

"Immaturity" is another form of an ideal you push upon others.

The truth is, everyone has a different perception on maturity and also a different way of showing it.

Fuck you if you think I'm immature for not taking your bad joke well.
Fuck you if you think I'm immature because I ask silly questions.
Fuck you if you think I'm immature for not liking it when you stare at me with that fucked up ugly ass expression.
And FUCK YOU if you think I'm immature for getting affronted at you not spending time with me.

Everyone is different.
If you took the time to see it,
you would see that I DO take your bad jokes well.
you would see that I ask those things because I just want to say what's on my mind.
you would see that I DO tolerate your fucked up ugly ass expression.
But I DO NOT appreciate your current attitude.
I DO NOT OWE YOU FUCK.

mature, immature, mature, immature, mature, immature, mature, immature

In the end, they're just words that have different meanings to different people.

Thursday, October 13, 2011

海洋和贝壳的故事

从前从前,
贝壳被海洋放任了
贝壳无家可归,无依无靠
可是为了生存,它为自己谋出一条生路了
它渐渐的试着把海洋放下

过后过后,
海洋突然回来了
它说要把贝壳带走

贝壳好想说,
当初不是说好放任我的了吗?
在我需要你的时候,你去了哪里?

贝壳好想说,
曾经,我把你放任了。
过后,你把我放任了。
我们扯平了。
为什么还要回来搅乱我的心湖?

可是贝壳说不出口。
因为它知道海洋是真心的。
海洋放不下。
而贝壳,
贝壳是留恋着的

所以贝壳静悄悄的
在海洋和陆地的边缘踏步
因为它被海洋放任后
陆地成了它的家。

贝壳知道,
海洋中有一天,一定会退潮
然后再次把贝壳放任
所以它原地踏步
珍惜着海洋涨潮时给它的美好
等待着它再次退潮时留给它的放任

毕竟贝壳,
也只不过是一个渺小的贝壳。


Monday, October 10, 2011

An Ideal (V for Vendetta)


Read V for Vendetta recently.
(The graphic novel version)
I've watched the movie b4, and after reading the graphic novel, i feel the movie is not bad. Unlike most movies made from novels, the movie actually uses does the novel justice in the sense that it shows the core idea of the story.
And the bonus was Natalie Portman. Hehe..can't help but like her^^

The core idea of the whole story is basically showing how much people can do for an ideal they are in love with.
Ideals.
If you reli think about it, everyone is in love with an ideal actually.

To me,
An Ideal = An Illusion of something perfect that you wish existed
An ideal makes you blind to the truth and to everything else.
And in your pursuit of that ideal, you might just end up giving up everything else.
And/or when that ideal dissipates, you're left with nothing but an empty shell.

There are perfect examples of what i just mentioned in the novel.

V was an ideal
Derek, the innocently murdered husband, was an ideal
Justice, was an ideal
The love of Fate, was an ideal
The Voice Of Fate, was an ideal

In real life,
The Price and the Princess, is an ideal
Happily ever after, is an ideal
The perfect one, is an ideal
The one who got away, is an ideal
Pure friendship between two sexes without awkward complications, is an ideal
RM5 for a karaoke session, is an ideal (there's always forced tidbits and tax)

For the sake of an Ideal, V willingly gave up his life
For the sake of an Ideal, Rose threw her life away
For the sake of an Ideal, Evey gave up her identity

For the sake of an Ideal, people all over the world lay weeping on their beds for undeserving twats
For the sake of an Ideal, we toil and force ourselves forward, even when we're broken and bleeding out of every pore
For the sake of an Ideal, citizens vote
but let's not get political

The fact is that Ideals exist because we do not live in a perfect world and yet we strive for perfection in all things.
This is the truth.
It's not pretty, but it's true all the same.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

6/10/11 (不睡篇)

告诉你一个秘密:

当一位姑娘说她不舒服时,你要安慰。
当她说她不想睡时,你要安慰。
当她说她好烦时,你要宁听,然后安慰。

当她说她不舒服,却不想睡因为她很烦却不告诉你她烦什么时,
你要安慰。

因为可能,
真的可能,
她是为了想和你说话,
所以很累,头很晕,
都宁愿不睡的。

6/10/11

是我连续几天不好的心情让我生病,还是我闷着的病让我连续几天心情不好呢?
头很晕
也有点痛
想吐

好久没有这种感觉了……
好想好好的病一病……
不要像这样吊着吊着的……

想找你……
可是……


突然想回到PJ……

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Depressed 2

Lord...
I'm so depressed...0.0

Y am i so depressed?
I don't know.

I'm just depressed....==

Haix....
I wanna go relax.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

depressed..

Suddenly feel damn depressed..
Haix....dunnoe y...
Everyone else seems so happy...
But I'm damn depressed...
I guess i miss you...
but you're too bz to miss me...

Depressed....
depressed...........
depressed...................

DEPRESSED

4/10/11

不知不觉的,
又在网上寻找你的踪影了

确实不实际

可是……
女人嘛……
就是这样子

在这种时候,会后悔把一切联系的方式断掉了
可是认真的想下
如果没砍断
依旧的寻找你踪影的行动
也不会有结果的

重点:你还存有我的电话号码

Monday, October 3, 2011

3/10/11

Once again realised i'm very easily influenced.
Although it's good news in some aspects,
it's a nightmare in others.

Have been watching Taiwan series again lately,
my fav 恶作剧之吻.

Just picked up Pride and Prejudice again.

That's when i realised i'm easily influenced.
Back in the day when i was reading books non-stop, i can digest 18th century English like a glutton digests chicken pie.
Taken, there IS a certain skill needed to understand and appreciate this unique brand of language,
i still appreciate it, but it's just that much harder to digest it.
Will try hard though.

经来都在发梦
差不多天天都梦到他
真的……
好久没有试过这样了~
前阵子蛮开心的
那种特别的告诉我“我想你了”的方式
蛮窝心的
希望H1N1快快吹过~
那“安”,有戴着吗?