me

I feel like piece by piece, i'm losing myself...
I always find myself wondering, who am i? Why am i behaving like this?
I smile and laugh like a lunatic everyday, but when the laughter stops, i wonder, why am i acting this way?
Yes, i am happy with some of my friends. But do i hv to make a fool out of myself? Am i doing it to make myself happy or to satisfy other ppl?
I used to be a cool sort of person. When i don't talk, i'm scary. I've accepted that part of myself, but now, i feel like i've changed so much.
I'm always perky and happy and laughing, my frenz think i'm lk sunshine, but am i?
The final question is, what am i really? Am i a cool person? Am i happy? Am i perky?
Haix....i can't find myself anymore.....