A Path Less Traveled By

There's a place you go, when you're in this situation.

When your insecurities are pounding on your door
When your pressure is mounting
When your stress is sitting like a mountain on your back
When everything goes wrong
When you have to put on a strong front cuz you know hyenas are just waiting to tear you down
When you have to keep going even though you're broken
When you are so tired all you want to do is disappear
When you want to scream but are unable to
When you are torn up inside and have jello for brains and your break is no where near
When you can't get through a day without some small accident telling you "In your face"
When you start to wonder at your own sanity

You go to a place that is dark and humid
You feel numb inside
A dangerous numb feeling
You're sitting on the damp floor
drops of water drip drip dripping all around you-
but you can't see
you can only hear
There is a current-
blowing you to the left and to the right
You're numb. You want to yield.
To one side, there is light and warmth. Positivity. Strength.
On the other side, there is darkness, a list of sin; a tall building is somewhere on that list. Negativity. Rest.

You sway -
to and fro
to and fro
Whenever you sway towards one side, the other side pulls you close -
you sit upright again
But then the other side pulls you near
and the struggle continues

The darkness is calling you
It is inviting, restful.

The brightness is beckoning
It is trying, full of hardships.

"Take the path less traveled by"

But then, I have a unique perspective on things.
So, which is my 'path less traveled by'?

The bright road lined with nails and swords with a covered dish at the end that may contain either a cupcake or a can of worms?

OR

The dark path lined with light and warmth and bells and whistles and smiles and happiness with a soft goose-feather bed in the middle and a curtain behind the bed with eternal damnation hiding in the shadows?

tough choice