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Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Tam Lin - a ballad

I'm not sure that this suits the tastes of everyone, but I love this ballad.^^ It might be hard to understand, that's why i've put in an explanation for each part. Enjoy^^

TAM LIN
oh, i forbid you maidens all
that wear gold in your hair.
to come or go by carterhaugh
for young tam lin is there.

Maidens were warned against going to Carterhaugh because a notorious young man called Tam Lin lived there.


if you go by carterhaugh
you must leave him a wad.
either your rings or green mantle
or else your maidenhead.

If they went through Carterhaugh, they must leave him a token of their jewelery or clothing or else he will take their virginity.

she's away o'er gravel green
and o'er the gravel brown.
she's away to carterhaugh
to flower herself a gown.

A young lady (Janet) did not heed the warnings and traveled to Carterhaugh to pick flowers for her gown.

she had not pulled a rosy rose
a rose but barely one.
when by came this brisk young man
says, lady let alone.

She has barely plucked a single rose when Tam Lin appeared and forbade her to pluck anymore.


how dare you pull my rose, madam?
how dare you break my tree?
how dare you come to carterhaugh
without the leave of me?

He asks her why has she entered his domain and is ruining his home without his permission.

well may i pull the rose, she said
well may i break the tree.
for carterhaugh it my father's
i'll ask no leave of thee.

She replies that she has every right to pluck a rose from Carterhaugh because this place belongs to her father and her father gave Carterhaugh to her.


he's taken her by the milk-white hand
and there he's laid her down.
and there he asked no leave of her
as she lay on the ground.

He then proceeded to rape her. (But i guess they do not use such brazen words in the olden days. Instead they made it sound romantic. Go figure....=.=)

oh tell me, tell me, then she said
oh tell me who art thee.
my name it is tam lin, he said
and this is my story.

Afterwards, she asked him who he was. He then proceeded to tell her his story.


as it fell out upon a day
a-hunting i did ride.
there came a wind out of the north
and pulled me betide.

He was hunting one day and a wind caused him to fall off his horse.

and drowsy, drowsy as i was
the sleep upon me fell.
the queen of fairies she was there
and took me to herself.

The Queen of Fairies saved him from death and he has belonged to her ever since.

at the end of every seven years
they pay a tithe to hell.
and i'm so fair and full of flesh
i'm feared 'twill be myself.

Every 7 years, the Fairies pay a tithe (something like a tax) to hell (in the form of a human soul) and he is afraid it's his turn.

tonight it is good halloween
the fairy court will ride.
and if you would your true love win
at miles cross, you must bide.

Tonight is the night the tithe is due and if Janet wants to save him and win him for herself, she must hide in Miles Cross.

gloomy was the night
and eerie was the way.
this lady in her green mantle
to miles cross she did go.

So although the night was gloomy and eerie, Janet went to Miles Cross all the same.

with the holy water in her hand
she cast the compass round.
at twelve o'clock the fairy court
came riding o'er the mound.

Armed with Holy Water, she waited for them. At 12 o'clock, the Fairy Court came.

first came by the black steed
and then came by the brown.
then tam lin on the milk-white steed
with a gold star in his crown.

The first horse was black, the second was brown, Tam Lin sat on the third horse which was white with a golden star on its forehead.

she's pulled him down into her arms
and let the bridle fall.
the queen of fairies she cried out
young tam lin is away.

She pulled him off the horse and into her arms and the Queen of Fairies cried out in alarm.

they've shaped him in her arms
an adder or a snake.
she's held him fast and feared him not
to be her earthly mate.

The Fairies turned Tam Lin into a snake in Janet's arms, but she held on to him.


they've shaped him in her arms again
fire burning bold.
she's held him fast and feared him not
till he was iron cold.

They turned him into a lump of burning coal, but she held on.

they've shaped him in her arms
to a wood black dog so wild.
she's held him fast and feared him not
the father of her child.

They turned him into a ferocious dog, but she held on.

they've shaped him in her arms at last
into a naked man.
she's wrapped him in the green mantle
and knew that she had him won.

At last, they turned him into a naked man and she wrapped him in her mantle, and she knew she had won.

the queen of fairies she cried out
young tam lin is away.

had i known, had i known, tam lin
long before, long before you came from home.
had i known, i would have taken out your heart
and put in a heart of stone.

The Queen of Fairies was aghast and said "If I had known you would leave me, I would have replaced your beating heart with stone before I sent you back to earth."

had i known, had i known, tam lin
that a lady, a lady would steal thee.
had i known, i would have taken out your eyes
and put in two from a tree.

"If I had known a woman was going to steal you from me, I would have taken out your eyes and replaced them with wood."

had i known, had i known, tam lin
that i would lose, that i would lose the day.
had i known, i would have paid my tithe to hell
before you'd been won away.

"If I had known i would lose you, I would have sacrificed myself rather than to lose you." (I think..not sure bout this last sentence.)

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Fire and Hemlock -Diana Wynne Jones


After so many years, I finally understand a perplexing story~
I've had this book for ages ( since my primary skul years),
over and over again have i read it, but a piece seems to be missing everytime.
So finally, as i was re-reading it today,
i googled it and found the missing piece.
"The legend of Tam Lin"
After i read that confusing ballad,
i finally realised that>>
Thomas was Tam Lin
Polly was Janet
and Laurel was The Queen of Fairies.
Every 7 years, someone must be sacrificed to Hell,
since Polly came out from her dream 9 years ltr, i don't rmb who was sacrificed b4...but i suppose they don't follow the 7 year rule.
So Laurel wants to sacrifice Thomas and erases Polly's memory to keep her out of her way,
her next target is Seb and Morton wants Seb to go to Laurel to save his own skin but Seb clings on to Polly in order to save his own.
I know this is really confusing, but if you read the book, you'll understand what i'm talking about^^

Monday, May 23, 2011

Today

Went to Parkson today for a run.
Encountered some damn funny things..
While eating Breakfast/Lunch at Sushi King, saw this woman throwing basketfuls of sarcasm at her husband(?) with this awfully mocking tone~
One line reli cracked me up
"你没钱不是因为我大洗,是因为你不会赚钱。你都没有钱给我洗!”
When i heard that i laughed like mad (quietly ofcourse)
What a woman...if you had that kind of person in your life, kick em' out pronto!
After that i punched another hole in my left earlobe.
I've got 6 ear piercings in total now (God knows why i need so many..)
I really have no idea why i have so many piercings...but i guess it's just that time you know? That time when you need to have something in your life. Even though it may only just be an ear piercing that was unnecessary and painful, it's still something.
Got 3 new shirts too~
And Sunscreen.
Planning to go to the beach sometime this week.
So tired of asking people if they want to go with me...
So, you know what, I'm just gonna go.
Hate to have to ask people and listen to them say "Oh, if he/she goes i'll go." "Oh...see how lo..." "Oh! Yeah! I want to go! Wait ya, i reply you tonight." and nv replies.
My parents will probably throw a fit if they find out i'm going alone...
Which is why i'm gonna give it one last try.
Ede asked someone if they wanna go, if i do not receive an answer again,
Off i go.
This is my resolve.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

I Desire the "DESIRE"

Have you ever wanted something really badly but couldn't have it?
But you still want it like hell
but you know you can't have it
BUT you still yearn for it soooooooooooooooooo much???????
NO, i'm not talking bout a guy...=.=
I want a smart phone so badly...
and not just any smart phone >>
I want the HTC Desire HD.
It retails at RM2K+
Basically, it's just really cool and has a lot of great specs.
Yeah, it's heavy and awkward,
but i just want it.
But i can't have it.
Cuz i can't afford it nor can my family.
Actually, why spend so much on a phone when you can get (>>) at the same price??
>> a new lappie with good specs
>> a new desktop with good specs
>> pay 7 months of rent
>> countless pairs of shoes and clothes
>> a motorcycle
>> downpayment for a car
But still, against all common sense,
I want it
SO i'm gonna go bash my head against a wall somewhere now and force myself to forget about it.

but Damn i want it.....

Thursday, May 19, 2011

A circle


A circle;
made up of familiar people and familiar things.
It's comforting.
But it is also a prison.
I do not know how to operate outside the circle;
like a machine missing a big cogwheel;
function is impaired.
Taking refuge in this circle also equates to being trapped in the circle.
What happens when the circle fails?
I draw a smaller one.
and then a smaller one
and then a smaller one
until, before i realise it,
i'm trapped so tight i can hardly breath.

A circle.

My circle.

I should get out from the circle.

But.....

The warmth and security offered by the circle draws me.
And so i huddle in the center of the circle once again.
Closing my eyes and slowing down my breath.
Slumbers in peace.
Until a ripple disturbs my circle again.
and i will draw a smaller circle once again.

Body and Mind

Your body is your own.
Your mind is your own.
When something is wrong, you know it.
Even though you can't pin point what it is,
you know.
So, something is wrong.
All that's left is pin pointing it.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Mirror

I look into the mirror,
and i see a fuzzy reflection.

I look into the mirror,
and i see someone staring back at me.
I look into the mirror,
and those eyes,
staring right back into mine,
are not mine.
I look into my mirror,
and i see someone looking back at me.

But It's Not Me.



Who Is She?

Monday, May 16, 2011

Hair

When it's short, you want it long;
when it's long, you want it short;
when it's black, you want it blonde;
when it's blonde, you want it black;
when it's plain, you want it fancy;
when it's damaged, you want it plain;
when it's tied up, you want it loose;
when it's loose, you want it tied up;
when your fringe is long, you want it short;
when your fringe is short, you want it long.

When you are bound, you want to be free;
when you are free, you want to be bound.
Case in point.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

好想旅行~


在放假中,
突然好想去旅行。
去海边走走~
如果可以选的话,我觉得我会选择在海边住吧~
海真的很美很美~
可是哦,真的不懂要找谁去好~
脑子里只想到有几个好人选,可是其中2个不能去,
1个我不能叫他去,还有1个…
所以结果只有我和一位朋友能去
加油加油~一定能筹够人的!^^
今天坐爸爸的车,看出窗外,吹着风,
突然想到,
我们说过一起去旅行。
我说过好多好多次~“我们一起去旅行好吗?”
这一次,你放大假,我也放假,
终于有机会去了,
却再也没有机会了。
也不会太伤心…只有点可惜…
不懂谁说过,到了最后,最伤人的是曾经说过的承诺。
好像去旅行~去海边吹风~
其实有点想叫你去,因为知道你一定会好好照顾我。
可是我不会开口,而你也不会懂,
因为你不知道我在说的是你。
~~~旅行啊~~~

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

明天会更好

每个人都不一样。
大家喜欢吃的食物不一样,喜欢喝的饮料不一样,喜欢看的戏不一样,喜欢的宠物不一样,喜欢的人的种类不一样,喜欢上一个人的定义不一样,喜欢一个人的期限不一样。
从不相信一个人可以在几天内爱上一个人。
以前不相信,现在也是。
可是…有些犹豫…
看了不该看的东西
告诉自己不关自己的事,
明天会过得比较好^^

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Exams are OVER!!!


Just reached home from my celebratory activities~
Finally finished our semester exams today!!!!
~~~!!!Woohoo!!!~~~
After being tortured for so many days~
After going to skul for study groups so early for a whole week~
After being sleep deprived for so long~~
After having a headache living in my brain for so long~
After all the sh*t we went through~
!!!It's finally over!!!!
From today onwards, we have 3 weeks.
3 whole weeks to do wat we want,
3 weeks to laze around and act like bums,
3 weeks to go crazy,
3 weeks to just relax and chill.

I can't believe our Year 2 Sem 1 is over,
when we come back, we'll be in our Year 2 Sem 2.
God....that's scary...
And when we come back, we'll have to work even harder,
we've got TVP coming and loads more of sh*t to put up with.
So these 3 weeks are all we have to bum around.
Hence, better make good use of them!!!

Right about now, you may be asking:
" What is this girl doing? She just got home from a long day out, tak letih ke? Tak perlu bath ke?"
The answer is "Yes, i have to bath."
But someone just finished crapping in the toilet and i do not want to go in right now.....=.=
Therefore, i'm crapping here. Verbally.
Hahaha~~anyway,

~~~!!!HAPPY HOLIDAYS PEOPLE!!!!~~~

Friday, May 6, 2011

Listen


I miss the times when you would listen;
listen to me rant
listen to me going blah blah blah
like a bullet train
With that smile on your face
that says
" I Love You "

I miss the times when you would listen
listen to me say things

that are out of this world
listen to my fantasies
as i blur our realities
with that look in your eyes
that says
" I Love You "


What's past is past,
the future is yet to come.
But i'll always remember how
you used to listen to me
even when i didn't make sense
even when it wasn't anything to do with you
even when i was behaving
like a crazy person;
you would LISTEN to me

and that's all that matters.



Thursday, May 5, 2011

Taking an break~~

Had serious trauma on Tuesday when i screwed up my MP exam.
Basically, once again my natural Blurness and Suck-at-Math-ness sickness acted up and i lost 20marks on calculation.
Yeah...i feel like i will get a nightmare just by talking bout it now....=.=
SO anyway, i was adamant to save my GPA even by a little, and hence tortured myself and studied extra hard hard hard to save my other subjects~(saying that has given me more motivation to pull a late late nighter~^^)
Then, today, was my CRM exam where i got a chance to redeem myself because there was a calculation part in this exam too. It was worth 30 marks.
So, a bunch of my friends and i reached school early for a study group;
while we were waiting for the upstairs classrooms to clear out,
my friend who went down to park his car (previously it was parked illegally),
came back up the stairs with a parking summons in his hand.
I and another girl was like "Shite! Are you serious!!??"
Cause we were both parking illegally as well,
she was parked in front on the school blocking someone's car while i was parked in an unmarked area at the side of the school gate,
so we both ran downstairs (me more dramatically involving stomping and jumping down half a flight of stairs)
i ran to my car, and Thank GOd! I didn't get a summons~
Checked the front shield and the back and i was safe~
That's when i knew it was kind of a sign, from the powers unknown,
telling me that it was all cool, and that i'm gonna be ok.
So even though i had a persistent headache for the whole day (it's still here...=.=),
i think i did OK for my exam.
And that makes me feel loads better^^
Alright~breaks over~gonna gambate for tomorrow's exam (Communication Theories)
~~~!!!GAMBATE FIGHTING!!!~~~

Sunday, May 1, 2011

The truth behind "Mary Mary Quite Contrary"

Mary Mary quite contrary,
How does your garden grow?
With silver bells and cockle shells
And pretty maids all in a row.


This is such an interesting nursery rhyme~
It may sound harmless, but the truth behind it is breathtaking~

Mary Mary quite contrary
> Mary actually refers to Bloody Mary (Mary Tudor) who killed countless Protestant men.

How does your garden grow
> "Garden" refers to the graves of Protestants which kept growing in number during her reign

With silver bells
> "Silver Bells" are actually thumbscrews which crushed the thumbs between two hard surfaces with the tightening of a screw.

and cockle shells
> " Cockle Shells" are instruments of torture which were attached to the genitals. (How were they used?? Go figure..;p )

And pretty maids all in a row
> "Maids" are devices (guillotines) used to behead people.

So next time, before you teach your child a nursery rhyme, look up the meaning first. Because something that sounds beautiful may have a completely different meaning~~^^